Trademark- only love
2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give our dreams just one more chance
Don't let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

"Jacky released me gently and took tissue paper to wipe off my tears. “Remember this. If you ever need me and I’m not around, just wait for me. Because I’ll always be here.”

I nodded.

“I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight.”

I nodded. If he kept on talking, I could flood the void deck with my tears.

“Remember: To be happy, you either change the world, or you change your thinking. To be realistic, you have to change your thinking to be happy. But me, I will change the world for you.”

I said nothing because my mouth had been choked with my sobbing.

Gosh oh gosh. Don't wake me up. Please, let time raech a standstill now. Right now. Gosh.
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“You’re like the North Pole of a magnet bar, and Jacky is also like the North Pole of a magnet bar. There’s no way for both of you to be close together. There’s a force that’ll always push you both apart. This force is called the obstacle, like interest differences, communication problems and etc.

“However, if you put a metal bar in between, both you magnets will stick to it. And you’ll be close to each other. That metal bar dissolves the force that pushes both of you away. And that metal bar is what we called love.”
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“Young lady,” the old man suddenly asked. “Are you just his classmate, a friend?”

He must have been eavesdropping on our conversation. However, I saw no harm in telling him the truth, so I said, “I believe I’m more than that.”

“Alright then, love him while you can. In love, there’s only love or don’t love. Since you love him, do it now.” The old man said. "

- I believe you, Low Kay Hwa

sighs.. i'll get the book soon.

It's only been almost 3 weeks since school reopen but it feels as though it's been forever. Yes, time does fly by fast but everyday is so dense and compacted with so many things, it feels like we've been trudging through mud.
Tomorrow isn't a half day. I don't understand why. So what if Chinese New Year is only on next monday, doesn't mean we can't celebrate it in school tomorrow. Yeah we have a performance. To watch. Where's the fun in there? There can't even be a class party. Ok, even is we're gonna have lessons, how come we're not even allow to wear red tomorrow? Pantat.
Hmm... this is so sad. Farhan doesn't want to come home. He said he's not good enough for us and that's why he doesn't deserve to be with us. Unbelievable. But he still calls mum 'Ibu', dad 'Pak', me 'kakak' and my brothers 'abang', so there might still be hope. We celebrated his 10th birthday on 17th jan. His birthday was on 16th jan. Imagine that to be the first time someone celebrates his birthday. The first time that even he celebrates his own birthday. 16th january had always been another ordinary day for him. I hope he turns out well. He's a good kid. He didn't deserve the way he was brought up. If my family can't be the family for him, someone damn well find him a good one soon.

first week of school

It's only been officially the 4th day of school (first 2 days were sort of orientation, welcome back to school kind of thing) and i've got work up to my eyeballs. actually i bet almost all sec 4s are pretty worked up right now. i have so many commitments, i shocked myself when i counted my commitments with yearmates in the room on wednesday.
sigh...so i have 3 proposals due this week and 3 tests to study for next week. big deal... i have to stay positive. =) this have got to work.
i have been a good girl so far, i did not fall asleep in class, paid attention in most classes *grins* i've been reading 'Eclipse' under the table. it's quite fun, the excitement and the thrill of almost getting caught. i think that Mrs Teo might have thought I was asleep for 3/4 of her lesson. Physics was one lesson I could divert my attention, she was revising last year's work so it wasn't like i was missing major stuff.
this year, i've got mostly the good teachers. and now i should really work my ass off. i should get a 3.6 so that i can do a H2 in JC. shouldn't be hard right? i mean my last year GPA was only 3.04. sigh..sometimes the only way is to lie bluntly to yourself.
ok so got to go start on one of the proposals.
and she says "be carefull..." maybe all my life I think I might have been too carefull.

New Year Resolution

School has started again. It still feels like a dream. I'm moving in this phase where I'm trying to get out of this holiday mood, and to remind myself that, fortunately and unfortunately, that I have responsibilities. Instead of the four terms that we have, we will only have three terms this year. Time will fly by realy quick. And I'm scared. But still excited. Apprehensive.

My class' form teacher is Mrs Teo Poh Poh and our CLET is Dr Slatter. Seems like a good year ahead. I just gotta keep my head above the water. I have those few people who believe in me, and I've put my faith in people who I know can and would hurt me because I couldn't hurt them. So it's time for me to believe in myself. To be satisfied in what I can do. To learn from what I cannot do. Obstacles be damned.

Lately, I'd enjoyed watching Twilight. There's been so many contradictions of opinions. Some of my friends think that the movie is too boring, because there is more of lovey-dovey scenes rather than action. But by book, it is suppose to be that way, hell the movie would've been longer if it really followed the book.

But I don't mind. Story, music and setting, of course the acting skills are what really matter. Action is just a bonus. Dad says I should get a boyfriend like Edward Cullen. I'm really amused. He said "I don't mind being a vampire. We get to see the world."

Let me sign

Oh
Standing by a broken tree
Her arms all twisted
She's pointing at me

I was damned by the light coming
Over as she
She spoke with a voice
That disrupted the sky

She said "Walk on over, yeah
to this bit of shade
I'll wrap you in my arms"
And she said "Let me sign
Let me sign."

Rob Pattison is an amazing song writer and singer. He puts so much emotion in his songs, the lyrics, the melody and his voice is so beautiful.