While I still remember, I shall attempt to recall some of the significant moments of J2 life...
Studies
June holidays were spent as such: 1 week of studying for CT2s and 3 weeks rehearsing for TSD A levels that were held in July.
The experience was fun but extremely tiring.
Monologue: It is mentally tiring and emotionally tiring. Brecht's pieces may seem disjointed all the way but they are actually linked. And the different ideas are linked so well together, or more like one idea triggers the next which triggers the next and so on, that actually the monologue is one fluid piece. But performing it is really consuming because I have to remember the flow of ideas, how one thought leads to another. So I always have to think. And then the emotions and actions will naturally follow once I am able to to inhibit each and every thought, and feel the flow of the psychological motives triggering emotional reactions thereby leading me to act in a certain way. All the while, I had to recall that I am a bourgeois german jewish housewife who loves her german scientist husband who may or may not be the future cause of my death. My presence jeopardizes his own safety, and mine own, yet it is difficult for me to leave him as I love him. Rehearsals are extremely tiring; I end up crying 5 times within 0.5 hour of consultation with Mr Lyon... By the time I got to A levels, I was really really sian of my monologue. But apparently the tiredness add another edge to my performance. Gave it a bit more of realism because my character is tired of not being certain of anything anymore. Had good feedback from the examiner and Mr Lyon after my practical examination.
Duologue:
Practicing with Michael makes me work thrice as hard because he is such a naturally talented actor and I didn't want to bring him down, neither did I want to pale in comparison since we are doing the duologue together. It is rather tiring but at least Michael is there and we get to cry, and be angry and shout and laugh together during rehearsals. Apparently our duologue is really good. There is an unexpected moment of comedy which is damn funny (I still don't get why but hey it's a good thing) followed by a moment of seriousness and sadness. So the audience is like HAHAHAHA!!!! ... Oh shit!I shouldn't have laughed... I think duologue was my best performance out of the 3.
Group:
It is amazing how we improve all the way till A levels. Even 1 week before A levels, we were still working hard, improving on the script, our acting, our interaction between characters. I'm really proud of Greener. We did a lot of things ourselves. If grades had anything to do with the process, we would have gotten A just for it. We learned so much. And I really hope that it is not the one to pull me down. Like dancework team and pw team, we put our heart and soul into the entire process and we loved and enjoyed almost every minute of it but the results fall way below our expectations and hopes. I really wish that it wouldn't be the case for TSD because I have put in so much effort. We have put in so much effort. To get anything lower than B will just be a disappointment. But whatever the results will be (A level result coming out this friday) I know that nobody can take away the experience that we've had and that we will still be proud of ourselves whatever the results may be.
CT2s... haha didn't do it justice because of all the effort put into TSD A levels.
After that, it was seriously a bliss to just study and focus on studies. Without any distractions, any other commitments, focusing and working hard to do well for A levels gives a strong personal satisfaction. And it also had a lot to do with the fact that I love the subjects that I was studying. Getting back improved results for all my hard work with every assignment that I did was really an enjoyment for me.
Now and then, Mike Ye Oon and I would visit Street Dance. It was such a joy to see them grow :)))
Come A levels, I really did the best I could. And sometimes when I reflected upon the process leading towards A levels, I think that I could've studied more. I could've been less distracted. I could've studied longer. But given all circumstances. that I could only really start studying from August onwards cos of TSD A's, I tried my best. I just hope that I get good results to go to university and to the course of my choice. I just hope that I won't get disappointed.
Friends
Along the way, I really bonded well with a few friends. We helped each other during A levels studying period. Mike Mansi Ben Mah Vanessa Boonyi Ye Oon Shien Rei-en Nandhita Clement. We shared notes, we helped each other emotionally and mentally. Glad to have such amazing friends :)
Boon Yi, Ye Oon, Cheng Yuen
Amazingly I got 3 new extremely close friends. I've already known Ye Oon from street. But it's really nice to be able to somehow get even closer than we were already. And I really felt that I have a brother who really cares for me. Although he is quite scary when he is serious and scolding me for not eating dinner since he is the happy happy kind of person haha~
Boon Yi, although we were in TSD, we didn't get a chance to get to know each other since we were in different groups. But I'm glad we get to talk after TSD A's and somehow we clicked haha of all things we got closer initially because of Boys Over Flowers lololol... but yeah really nice to make friends with her. I learned a lot of things from her, like being more daring and grabbing at opportunities (no matter how small they are) to enjoy life everyday, and listening about her family and her siblings I get to learn a little bit about what a family is supposed to be like. Being similar in so many ways, and yet so different in so many other ways, it is always fun and exciting to hang out cos we'll talk about so many things and we always do the retardest things ever haha! And I'm glad to introduce Ye Oon and Boon Yi together!!!!!! lalalalalalalala i'm a fairy godmother!! hahahaha
Cheng Yuen, although he wasn't taking his A levels last year, he studied with us. And i got to learn a few things from him as well. He is really a committed and dedicated person, and he is really responsible. Whether he likes it or not, whether he's tired or not, whether he's busy or not, he always keep track of the things that he had to do. Although I am rather thorough and responsible most of the time, he keeps reminding me what it should be like to really be committed to something. On top of that, watching him play badminton is amazing. And it's quite refreshing to meet someone who's so clean and innocent, a really clean and white plate. Not that he's plain without his own points of view (but he's such an 'anything' person also -_-), he is inexperienced and wants to learn new things as best he can. So I'm glad also to be able to share with him a few things myself :)
My Birthday
Haha! best birthday so far!
Lunch with Boon Yi Ye Oon Cheng Yuen. And then watched badminton practice (I think court training is really cool!) And got a birthday surprise from Mansi Mike Ye Oon and Boon Yi <3 a guitar and a really nice card! and vann ben mah and anthia wrote me cards as well <333 it is amazing to know that somehow i managed to help my friends a lot and touch their lives. reading their well wishes and their thanks in my birthday cards was and is really touching. i am glad to have made a positive difference in people's lives. sometimes, i guess we don't need to do the big things. we don't need the world to know our names and recognize what we've done. at least for me, the satisfaction of having made a really good influence on the lives of ppl who really matter to me is enough.
Ye Oon's birthday
Watched "In time" with Boonyi Ye Oon Cheng Yuen at AMK hub. Ate lunch at Yilmaz :))) and then Cheng Yuen and I ran away so that BoonYi and Ye Oon can spend time together hahahaha ^^ then had dinner and bubble tea with Mansi Michael Juliet Ye Oon where we gave him his purple Dickies pants!
Prom
Haha! Performed with Ye Oon for his Dance King nomination in dedication to Boon Yi Lim! Awww <3 It was quite an amazing night. I ate a lot cos I was hungry and everybody else was taking photos and talking and walking around. Only girl I bet without make up and wearing court shoes that has barely an inch of heels ahha! But mum dressed me up in weird baggy clothes lol Then A01E went to esplanade there to lepak. then shared a cab back with Mike Ben Mah Anthia. haiz..... Ben and Anthia so sweet together... jealous much... hope to find someone for me too :)
Looking back at JC life, there were so many struggles and difficulties. There were so many things that I regretted and probably could have done better. There were so many opportunities that I let go. But as usual, when one door closes 10 others open. There were so many things I learned. I learned to enjoy life. I learned to complain with a smile on my face because life is always with struggles but it is so worth it because life is worth living with the special people supporting me as I go through this journey doing the things that I enjoy the most. I would go through all of it again to feel so well loved and to love as well in return.
