im so sleepy!!!
must do lit essay gahhh
tonight was a magical night. had last training. haha steffi's present to us was a torturous training session :D hehe the last exercise about just feeling the music was awesome, now there's something for us to do anw to improve our dance skills, listen to more music :)
thanks juniors for all the effort (the notes, the individual boards, the caps and pizzas) must have really caused a bomb on your pockets :/ hope you guys will press on after this and achieve more than we ever could. but rmbr, must buck up on your discipline first!!!
batchmates are awesome... never expected street dance to feel like family ever. i like this quote that nigel lythgoe said before "nobody looks after each other more than dancers". i was never really close to my classmates, absolutely loved my redcross yearmates but we are all busy with our individual commitments and it's really disappointing that we can't meet up as often. i miss out a lot on get togethers because of street/tsd. i feel very guilty and regretful. hope street dance'11 will continue forever <3 all the ups and downs, the litres of sweat and tears that we poured onto the mini lt floor, dance studio floor, amphitheatre and black mirrors corridor will be really embedded into my memory. everytime we get so demoralized but find the spirit to try again, and the times we complained quite happily (or not so happily haha) about muscle ache at the strangest parts of our body. or saying like 'hot damn my split is lower now :D' and times when we were cleaning and the person in front says 'eh, that's actually quite synchro lehh' and then we continue cleaning again. all our little triumphs and successes along the way. running to get speakers from dat's locker last year, to shoving back the blue speakers into ye oon's locker now hahahaa shall never ever forget this whole experience :)
to steffi, thanks a lot for all the guidance, encouragement. you helped us become better dancers and in the process, molded us to be better people. you helped us live our passion, and realise our dreams/goals/aspirations. we just wanted to dance but didn't know what it was and you showed us the way. thank you for helping us realise our dreams and making jc life very much enjoyable, memorable and something to look forward to. not many people can say that. but jc life is awesome because i have street dance, and i have the nicest and warmest people around me (streeters, steffi, ms ng and ms goh, 11A01E and TSD batchmates). and to volunteer to still coach us and open doors of opportunities for us after A's that is just awesome, unexpected and really so touching. it feels really good to have you feel so concerned for us, to take care of us like that, and be our big sister when all you really needed to be was a dance instructor. thank you so much steffi :)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
changed blog template... nothing special, just clearer. went to gym with ben and anthia after school. felt very refreshed. not so sluggish anymore. and yes, my abs and arms hurt (i do have abs, just that they are smothered with a thick layer of fat. eww gross)
let my mum and dad see my progress report. felt really bad. still feeling really bad. shall work doubly hard now. taking cts along with tsd a level WTP!
i want to dance so bad.
crisp seaweed, korean style fried seaweed is not nice :(
having cramps in my left leg.
okay shall do work now.
let my mum and dad see my progress report. felt really bad. still feeling really bad. shall work doubly hard now. taking cts along with tsd a level WTP!
i want to dance so bad.
crisp seaweed, korean style fried seaweed is not nice :(
having cramps in my left leg.
okay shall do work now.
Friday, April 29, 2011
The best thing about not updating a blog, no one else really checks. and if i update this dead blog, no one reads, so it remains sort of private.
i've been crying almost throughout the whole day, it sucks. my head and heart are hurting. maybe it's just the lack of sleep. maybe it's pms-ing which is bs cos i just ended my time of the month a few days ago. going to school was okay. saw mansi, she gave me a hug and said that things will be fine so i cracked. then minutes later saw rei-en and shien, and they said the same thing too and again i cracked. during the second free block, shien's comp crashed and i thought we lost all our sound cues. so i went to p.e. and then i just told nan and van what happened, and i cried. again. lol, maybe i was just too drained to notice tt i was damn depressed alr. don't even know why i cried. it's like for no reason, the tears just came pouring. and i felt more drained with each passing second. nan and van said they'd cover me for p.e. so i can work on the sound cues. love them. they're so supportive, wouldn't have made it through that episode if not for them. then got back to tsd room to find that russell managed to reboot shien's comp. so i was like ohmygod!!!! the heart attack was so freaking unnecessary!! and all that's left is to put in again the changes that didn't get saved. at least i didn't have to restart the sound cue system all over again.
during gp. i have no freaking idea what that was about. i was with my head down on the table, half sleeping half crying and snot coming down my nose for that 1 and a half hours of lesson. wah that was really draining and my head just felt heavy although my chest was lighter.
augustine, azura, hemin, sarah and teri are awesome <3333333 yay we have nice tsd juniors
tech run was disastrous. russell is a nice guy except for all the awkward comments and holier-than-thou attitude that comes out every once in a while. ben and i were so exasperated that we were all just so freaking distracted. tech run and at the same time, hanging paintings, and talking about costumes!! motherf* prioritize la. tech run!!!! what the noodles. and it's just hanging up the damn painting. don't need to squabble over it. and costumes. costumes. the performance will bloody suck even if we have the world's most beautiful costumes and yet our acting suck.
rehearsal run was a lot better than actual performance abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
really appreciated everyone's comments, especially nabil, who bothered to sit down with us and gave us more notes.the next time we have a showcase,i really want to impress nabil. i wanna hear him say that he'd pay to watch out performance too :/
the difference in quality and standard of performance between happyness and tempest is staggering!! it's so demoralizing. true that they practiced more, true that they have cooler shit and gizmo. but still. our group was initially viewed as the actors group. their group had people with niche areas in costume, sets, directing and some strong actors as well. now it seems like they have everything. although it is fun that we distribute all the work all the time, and we get to experience making sets, discussing costumes and script writing. but it's been a struggle to get here, and here is basically nowhere WHAT THE SHIT.
i just couldn't stand the happy atmosphere at mos burger just now. couldn't stand it. had to leave them. feel quite bad now for leaving muni to go home by herself. on the way home, in the train, walking back to the hdb block, cried again. thank god ryan was there to talk to about random stuff yay :)
maybe i have bipolar disorder.
it seems like whatever i put my heart into, and the bulk of my efforts, results don't show up. it's just disappointment after disappointment. first of with danceworks. and then pw results. we actually are very proud of what we produced i don't give a fuck what seab thinks. they can shove up their marking sheet somewhere unpleasant i don't care. and tsd group work isn't showing up. neither my monologue nor duologue is going along fine either. and don't even talk about academics. kena shit from helen tan for not doing econs tutorial twice now. and paul poh, okay la he's nice. wah but everytime he patronizes me, just wanna punch that face till he flies to china. seriously, i don't need anymore unnecessary crap in my life.
street dance. im so relieved that it's all over for us now. it is sad, but it's been so tiring. and honestly the five of us exco members have saturated all the experience that we can ever get from being part of raffles street dance. from actualy dancing and training basics etc. to planning performances (costumes, mixing music, blocking, rehearsal schedules, budgeting) to dealing with teachers, schools, external organizations and other ccas. seriously all the exco work and extra saikang that we take upon ourselves just so the batch and the juniors don't feel the pinch of pushing our cca to greater heights just gives us so much experience, knowledge and at the same time, reduce our lifespan by quite a lot. although we've only run the cca for less than a year now BLOODY HELL! i feel like we've all aged so much. the juniors. aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. i don't want to be too quick to say they are not a disappointment. but they are. or maybe we were just too excited about welcoming j1s that we set high expectations and therefore are disappointed cos they are not reaching it. i hope they find the motivation to go even higher now that everything is so nice and smooth sailing for them. hope something harsh comes and knocks them on their ass so they can wake up from their bubble of ... i don't know what. ignorant bliss la huh. the cca showcase was nothing to be proud of. and losing the $300 oh my god!!! whether it is $100 or $300, the money was representative of all the hard work the seniors put in to get through to danceworks finals. although to them, it is nothing compared to the priceless experience of preparing for the competition, we are supposed to be taking care of the fruits of their labour. and using it for our own benefit some more! it was because of that award that street dance could present something to the school for the very first time. frustration frustration frustration.
now gotta focus on studies and tsd. loll quite amused at how it's always been street, studies and tsd. like tsd is some mega shit on its own WHICH IT IS! bitch. why do you have to be so hard to manage and yet so fun, enriching and fruitful?
kay kay gotta sleep. tmr have interview.
i've been crying almost throughout the whole day, it sucks. my head and heart are hurting. maybe it's just the lack of sleep. maybe it's pms-ing which is bs cos i just ended my time of the month a few days ago. going to school was okay. saw mansi, she gave me a hug and said that things will be fine so i cracked. then minutes later saw rei-en and shien, and they said the same thing too and again i cracked. during the second free block, shien's comp crashed and i thought we lost all our sound cues. so i went to p.e. and then i just told nan and van what happened, and i cried. again. lol, maybe i was just too drained to notice tt i was damn depressed alr. don't even know why i cried. it's like for no reason, the tears just came pouring. and i felt more drained with each passing second. nan and van said they'd cover me for p.e. so i can work on the sound cues. love them. they're so supportive, wouldn't have made it through that episode if not for them. then got back to tsd room to find that russell managed to reboot shien's comp. so i was like ohmygod!!!! the heart attack was so freaking unnecessary!! and all that's left is to put in again the changes that didn't get saved. at least i didn't have to restart the sound cue system all over again.
during gp. i have no freaking idea what that was about. i was with my head down on the table, half sleeping half crying and snot coming down my nose for that 1 and a half hours of lesson. wah that was really draining and my head just felt heavy although my chest was lighter.
augustine, azura, hemin, sarah and teri are awesome <3333333 yay we have nice tsd juniors
tech run was disastrous. russell is a nice guy except for all the awkward comments and holier-than-thou attitude that comes out every once in a while. ben and i were so exasperated that we were all just so freaking distracted. tech run and at the same time, hanging paintings, and talking about costumes!! motherf* prioritize la. tech run!!!! what the noodles. and it's just hanging up the damn painting. don't need to squabble over it. and costumes. costumes. the performance will bloody suck even if we have the world's most beautiful costumes and yet our acting suck.
rehearsal run was a lot better than actual performance abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
really appreciated everyone's comments, especially nabil, who bothered to sit down with us and gave us more notes.the next time we have a showcase,i really want to impress nabil. i wanna hear him say that he'd pay to watch out performance too :/
the difference in quality and standard of performance between happyness and tempest is staggering!! it's so demoralizing. true that they practiced more, true that they have cooler shit and gizmo. but still. our group was initially viewed as the actors group. their group had people with niche areas in costume, sets, directing and some strong actors as well. now it seems like they have everything. although it is fun that we distribute all the work all the time, and we get to experience making sets, discussing costumes and script writing. but it's been a struggle to get here, and here is basically nowhere WHAT THE SHIT.
i just couldn't stand the happy atmosphere at mos burger just now. couldn't stand it. had to leave them. feel quite bad now for leaving muni to go home by herself. on the way home, in the train, walking back to the hdb block, cried again. thank god ryan was there to talk to about random stuff yay :)
maybe i have bipolar disorder.
it seems like whatever i put my heart into, and the bulk of my efforts, results don't show up. it's just disappointment after disappointment. first of with danceworks. and then pw results. we actually are very proud of what we produced i don't give a fuck what seab thinks. they can shove up their marking sheet somewhere unpleasant i don't care. and tsd group work isn't showing up. neither my monologue nor duologue is going along fine either. and don't even talk about academics. kena shit from helen tan for not doing econs tutorial twice now. and paul poh, okay la he's nice. wah but everytime he patronizes me, just wanna punch that face till he flies to china. seriously, i don't need anymore unnecessary crap in my life.
street dance. im so relieved that it's all over for us now. it is sad, but it's been so tiring. and honestly the five of us exco members have saturated all the experience that we can ever get from being part of raffles street dance. from actualy dancing and training basics etc. to planning performances (costumes, mixing music, blocking, rehearsal schedules, budgeting) to dealing with teachers, schools, external organizations and other ccas. seriously all the exco work and extra saikang that we take upon ourselves just so the batch and the juniors don't feel the pinch of pushing our cca to greater heights just gives us so much experience, knowledge and at the same time, reduce our lifespan by quite a lot. although we've only run the cca for less than a year now BLOODY HELL! i feel like we've all aged so much. the juniors. aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. i don't want to be too quick to say they are not a disappointment. but they are. or maybe we were just too excited about welcoming j1s that we set high expectations and therefore are disappointed cos they are not reaching it. i hope they find the motivation to go even higher now that everything is so nice and smooth sailing for them. hope something harsh comes and knocks them on their ass so they can wake up from their bubble of ... i don't know what. ignorant bliss la huh. the cca showcase was nothing to be proud of. and losing the $300 oh my god!!! whether it is $100 or $300, the money was representative of all the hard work the seniors put in to get through to danceworks finals. although to them, it is nothing compared to the priceless experience of preparing for the competition, we are supposed to be taking care of the fruits of their labour. and using it for our own benefit some more! it was because of that award that street dance could present something to the school for the very first time. frustration frustration frustration.
now gotta focus on studies and tsd. loll quite amused at how it's always been street, studies and tsd. like tsd is some mega shit on its own WHICH IT IS! bitch. why do you have to be so hard to manage and yet so fun, enriching and fruitful?
kay kay gotta sleep. tmr have interview.
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