Whoo...! It's been a really jam packed week. Haven't had a decent sleep since last week. But now that's geog pt is finally over... Yes i'll get a good night's rest tonight =D I'm like dead now. I came home at about 7.45 from Loewen's. Sighs... five years olds can be adorable and so annoying.
I came across this song entitled 'I love you' sang by Choikang Changmin. Then I found out that the song was actually from a band called Position. Then I found out that the song was originally a japanese song sang by Yutaka Ozaki. His voice is like wow...kinda like country style, husky and warm. but he died at the age of 26 due to drug overdose. Such a waste... sighs... and this song was adapted into a korean version. The lyrics aren't the same but both are beautiful :D
Japanese version:
I love you
Just for now, I don't want to hear sad songs
I love you
Escaping and escaping, I finally got to this room
This isn't a love where I was forgiven for everything
The two of us are like abandoned cats
This room is like an empty box, covered in fallen leaves
So you, with a crying voice like a kitten's...
On this creaking bed, instead of holding gentleness
If we can hold each other tightly
and then we'll close our eyes again
with a sad song, for this love not to fade
I love you
The two of us, who are too young
There's an untouchable secret in our love
I love you
I can't arrive at that, in my life right now
The love that piles up and lives on as one
We're only seeing a dream and being hurt
hearing "I love you" over and over,
You can't even go on living without this love
On this creaking bed, instead of holding gentleness
If we can hold each other tightly
and then we'll close our eyes again
with a sad song, for this love not to fade
Korean version:
I love you
There is nothing else I can say to you but 'I love you'
I love you
It seems to have become meaningless but I love you
What use is it now?
We’re going our separate ways
I know we can’t go back<
But I want to hold on to you however I can
I know we’ll meet again someday, if not in this lifetime
I shouldn’t show you a single tear drop
Leave me with the smile that made me fall in love with you
With that one smile, I will always be able to find you again
I love you
Do you remember the trembling feeling I first felt for you?
I love you
I’ve only just realised these words you said
I believed that our love wasn’t meant to be
Because it was too beautiful
Just as I was about to turn away
Like a dream, you came to me with your love<
I know we’ll meet again someday, if not in this lifetime
Leave me with the smile that made me fall in love with you
With that one smile, I will always be able to find you again
If we meet again someday, let’s make a promise
Let’s try not to love each other in this painful, easily separating kind of love
Currently I am annoyed cos I came across a fantastic song and now I forgot its title and I can't find it!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
funny thing is, i had wondered when i might get a break from my busy schedule and then BOOM! all arts fest cast have been quarantined cos one of us was H1N1 positive. and they wouldn't tell us who she is. sighs... LOA has been ok. slept a lot, cooked a lot (my mum made me since i'm at home. sheesh) and watched a lot of dbsk videos as well =D have to get back to sch tmr. which i guess it's a gd thing. the past week has been hectic as in aimless. yupp.
Friday, July 10, 2009
I'm really going crazy. My mum asks "Why are you doing this?" and even I ask myself that. Always asking that question. But I keep on thinking why not? WHY NOT? This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and it's always been something I want to do so why not? I guess it's something to do with being the last year in RG. I want to leave with a sackful of memories and experiences and good times and wonderful friends.
When I wanted to take up the modern jazz class last year, I thought why not? When I joined up FDC and ArtsFest and then cheerleading, why not? Sure it's crazy but I'm doing things that I love so, why not. I think my mum or anybody else should be happy for me because I have my own life that is outside of the books. They should be happy I'm living for something. I have a purpose. I have a focus.
My mum's only complaining now because she had no idea how my schedule was for semester 1. First there was FDC followed by ArtsFest. Then there was cheerleading and YMC CSP. and there was house stuff and CmPs took quite some time from after-school-hours. And I still crazily took third lang. And what about madrasah, piano class, tuition and giving tuition?? And my GPA for midyears was 3.33. That is the highest overall GPA EVER in my RG life. It may not compare much to those who got 3.5 or above but I managed all that, and with help of friends, produced good results. And right now, what I'm thinking is why can't I do that again?
By taking up the school musical, my semester 2 will be packed with (besides school): 3rd lang, cheerleading, modern jazz+ballet+helping out with other stuff at kavanagh dance, madrasah, tuition, giving tuition, piano and the rehearsals. It's about the same as the first semester. And the second semester is a lot shorter.
Maybe I'll die doing all these but at least I'll die smiling.
I really want to be in the National Day parade (school). It will be another chance for me to wear the RCY uniform before we pass out. But rehearsals for that will clash with so many other stuff.
I'm really grateful to Madame Loan. Knowing that I can't make it for french remedials, she sent me extra homework etc through email. At least I know, I have help from her. She's encouraging me to go on because she knows that although I'm weak, I'm still trying to improve my french. I'm trying my best.
Always, throughout my life, I believed that process is what counts the most. If results do not turn up, too bad, I tried and did the best I could. I'll learn from my mistakes and I'll make it work next time. Although this has been a positive thing to bear in my mind, I guess it made me a little too complacent. If my results suck, I tried and I did my best. But looking back, was that really my best? Is my capability that much? Why am I underestimating myself?
I guess stress is a good thing. At least for me, it is. With the sudden change in my schedule, I know a lot better now what is important, what should be prioritised and when it should be prioritised. Sure, by committing to this musical I might lose out in other areas. Kavanagh dance might retract their scholarship. I might suck more at piano because I'll have even less time to practice.
But this time, I really wanna make it right. It's not just about thinking that I've given my all, reassuring myself that I have done just that, but actually really making it work. And this time, I'll make it work. I'll pull off the musical. I can always take jazz and piano exams next year. If I lose the dance scholarship, it's ok. I can get a part time job next year for the fees or something. I'll get my french results up and I'll sit for the DELF exam in Nov. I'll make it.
Right now, everything might just seem too much and that I'm way over confident with myself. But then again, if I don't start off really optimistic, I'd lose my engine a lot faster. Make it or break it. Right now, I just choose to go for it. Try my best. If I really can't cope, well, I'll do something about it. I'll find a solution. I'll find a way.
I just hope that I'll have my family and friends' support throughout the entire way. And if I'm sidetracking in anyway, if I'm losing focus or I become a bad bitch with attitude problem etc, please please bring me right back to earth even if you have to literally slap my head off.
When I wanted to take up the modern jazz class last year, I thought why not? When I joined up FDC and ArtsFest and then cheerleading, why not? Sure it's crazy but I'm doing things that I love so, why not. I think my mum or anybody else should be happy for me because I have my own life that is outside of the books. They should be happy I'm living for something. I have a purpose. I have a focus.
My mum's only complaining now because she had no idea how my schedule was for semester 1. First there was FDC followed by ArtsFest. Then there was cheerleading and YMC CSP. and there was house stuff and CmPs took quite some time from after-school-hours. And I still crazily took third lang. And what about madrasah, piano class, tuition and giving tuition?? And my GPA for midyears was 3.33. That is the highest overall GPA EVER in my RG life. It may not compare much to those who got 3.5 or above but I managed all that, and with help of friends, produced good results. And right now, what I'm thinking is why can't I do that again?
By taking up the school musical, my semester 2 will be packed with (besides school): 3rd lang, cheerleading, modern jazz+ballet+helping out with other stuff at kavanagh dance, madrasah, tuition, giving tuition, piano and the rehearsals. It's about the same as the first semester. And the second semester is a lot shorter.
Maybe I'll die doing all these but at least I'll die smiling.
I really want to be in the National Day parade (school). It will be another chance for me to wear the RCY uniform before we pass out. But rehearsals for that will clash with so many other stuff.
I'm really grateful to Madame Loan. Knowing that I can't make it for french remedials, she sent me extra homework etc through email. At least I know, I have help from her. She's encouraging me to go on because she knows that although I'm weak, I'm still trying to improve my french. I'm trying my best.
Always, throughout my life, I believed that process is what counts the most. If results do not turn up, too bad, I tried and did the best I could. I'll learn from my mistakes and I'll make it work next time. Although this has been a positive thing to bear in my mind, I guess it made me a little too complacent. If my results suck, I tried and I did my best. But looking back, was that really my best? Is my capability that much? Why am I underestimating myself?
I guess stress is a good thing. At least for me, it is. With the sudden change in my schedule, I know a lot better now what is important, what should be prioritised and when it should be prioritised. Sure, by committing to this musical I might lose out in other areas. Kavanagh dance might retract their scholarship. I might suck more at piano because I'll have even less time to practice.
But this time, I really wanna make it right. It's not just about thinking that I've given my all, reassuring myself that I have done just that, but actually really making it work. And this time, I'll make it work. I'll pull off the musical. I can always take jazz and piano exams next year. If I lose the dance scholarship, it's ok. I can get a part time job next year for the fees or something. I'll get my french results up and I'll sit for the DELF exam in Nov. I'll make it.
Right now, everything might just seem too much and that I'm way over confident with myself. But then again, if I don't start off really optimistic, I'd lose my engine a lot faster. Make it or break it. Right now, I just choose to go for it. Try my best. If I really can't cope, well, I'll do something about it. I'll find a solution. I'll find a way.
I just hope that I'll have my family and friends' support throughout the entire way. And if I'm sidetracking in anyway, if I'm losing focus or I become a bad bitch with attitude problem etc, please please bring me right back to earth even if you have to literally slap my head off.
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