Friday's papers were allright, history and english paper 2. I'm seriously going to struggle on monday. Come on... a 1000 words esssay within 1 1/2 hours??? How can they expect us to write that much or even write a good story within that time limit even if we manage to adhere to the word limit?

Sighs... I can't wait to get the exams over and done with.

I'm going to study at the library with my friends later. I can see my mum was reluctant in letting me go. She thinks whenever I meet up with my friends, we talk and goof around and never actually do any work. Excuse us... Siti, Adriana and I studied in the library for a few hours and we did not digress. My mum even said that if my results are not so good, she's not letting me study with my friends outside. What that's got to do with my results? My results depend on if I'm good enough or not. Why blame my friends? This is seriously ridiculous. She might say that just to keep me on my toes but she could at least say better things to get me to study. She always nags because she claims she never sees me studying. I study outside where it's actually more peaceful what with my brother's absence and the absence of her nagging.

Why is everyone baring my soul?

Yesterday, my dad went home from the YMC parents' meeting. He's all like 'You better study hard so that you can get scolarship from Mendaki'. Like how many times does he or anybody else wants to say that? Come on... give me a break. It was never my choice to enter RGS. If it weren't for my tuition teacher, my brother and my parents I would have gone to Anderson Secondary. And if I never come to RGS, I would never face this much stress.

My aunt met my dad yesterday and asked him why I always looked so moody when she sees me alone, going home. How can I not be so glum and moody? Everyone's pressurizing me that's why. Goodness, even I need a break you know... Siti called me and emotional person. I didn't want to admit it at first but when my mum called me that, well, it just made me think again. I guess I always get caught up with myself sometimes. And not to mention all the stuff going on. I really need a good vacation. It's been too long since I stepped out of Singapore.