Monday, October 29, 2007

It's been a bad week for me. Ups and downs and end up in tears. My grandad passed away yesterday. He lived till 92. It's amazing if he could still live longer. But I'm just happy that he passed after raya, after we all gathered together, after I've seen him. And I'm glad he went through this year's ramadhan. So I'm trying to pray for him as much as I can. My only regret is that we were never close unlike my arwah nenek. She used to take care of me.
1 more month.. seems like a long wait..but time flies before you know it..
Anyway, happy belated birthday to kak shasha, hanis (my cousin) and of course to abang khai. He's such a cool guy. Haha.. he can go 'Yo! What's up?' heh..:)
Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
Fell too far, was in way to deep
I guess I let you get the best of me
Well I never saw it coming
I should of started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces from spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
The day I thought I'd never get through I got over you!
You took a hammer to these walls
dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
When you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me
Well I never saw it coming
I should of started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through I got over you!
Well I never saw it coming
I should of started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
Well I never saw it coming
I should of started running
A long long time ago
And i never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting My heart back together
Oh Ooooooh!
Now I'm putting my heart back together!
oh Ooooooooh!
Cause I got over you!
I got over you!
I got over you!
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through I got over you!
When I read the lyrics, I'm like 'damn straight you got that person'.. i kinda pictured in as a smack in the face. It's like when that person is so used to think that you were always so reliant on him/her and that he/she's your everything. And then suddenly you come and say 'I got over you!'. I dunno but imagining it that way, it felt good. Quote from feena, 'jangan nak perasan'. Imagine if you go up to that person and say, 'Sorry doesn't cover the distance. I GOT OVER YOU! bbye!' and do a little sharpay.. 'toodles!'
Sedekahkan al-fatihah to my grandad..amin..

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Sighs... it's really boring now. There's almost nothing to do...
Monday, had interclass PE games. Our class got in 3rd place in the B Group and 6th overall, both for badminton. We didn't get the top 3 for rockclimbing and basketball. Didn't see those games cos I was playing badminton. It was quite fun. Walau.. some of the people prooodddeedddd mann..! Wah..Smack here smack there. For our last game, Jingyi and Jiayi played for our class and the opponents were from 206, a badminton national player and Christine who's badminton skills were pretty tight. And we lost to them 23-21. (Although there aren't suppose to be more than 21 points in a set) I watched them play, it's damn frightening la... Walau.. the badminton player gave us like no chance, smack the shuttlecock like shit sia.. But Jiayi and Jingyi are still pro people..
Then we had the social and dining etiquette. It was quite fun. It was at Parkroyal Hotel. The hotel is really class. elegance... pizzazz! The speaker was quite humurous but kinda a bit mean la..ego also (woops..) But basically we were taught how to eat, how to present ourselves etc. But the food was good. Damn damn nice.. Had 5 courses of food. We had caesar salad (it's healthy ok.. it's mostly lettuce with sprinkled cheese and a little bit of meat, doesn't fill more than a tablespoon, not the whole but two fine slices of egg and something that tasted like bread), bread roll and butter (the butter's from germany XD), the main course which was chicken chop with potato wedges and broiled buttered carrots and brocolli. Followed by the desert which was French pastries (dunno why it's called that. i thought it was cake) and tea. The food was nice and a lot. As in each serving was small but when you eat everything, it's wow...
Then yesterday for cle, we watched a movie. It was so touching i cried... sobs... it's sweet and all too.. teaches the value of friendship and equality. 'Remember the Titans' based on a true story. I wonder who's the number 48 guy... Diy ni.. Sape-sape je number 48. Shall find out Haha..
Then we had the CCA Merits workshop. I went for AVAPA. It's kinda cool. But we ended at 11.45 when the time allocated for the workshop was to end at 1.30. In the end, I slept at the AVAPA room. Hehe.. the rest of the girls started doing the Rubrik's cube. People are liked hooked up or smthg. I go around and I see people doing it but it's kinda fun I guess but mentally exhausting.
Then today, we supposedly had to practice the choral speaking. But in the end, I helped Anthea and Farah to complete the script. I passed the other classes, they were already practicing the lines. Sighs... and auditions' this friday.
But we shall pulled it off and like NDP. Last-minute work but still... it came off good.
Then had asthetic talk. Wee! we're going to learn cooking again next year. Nicer food. Japanese cuisine... Italian food... chicken chop.. and dunno what else ah...
YAY!! 202 won the 2nd place for the ACP with a net profit of about $640!!! *Applause!!!* And the 1st class' profit was about 800 bucks. That's a bloody hell a lot of difference. But in total, the whole level earned more than 4000 bucks. Yay!
Oh and had OBS check up. I'm fit to go!
Feeling ever so betrayed. How the hell can anyone ever do such a thing?? Can't you at least have compassion and understanding?? Is it too much to ask for? You told me you regretted it once and you're doing it again. If you know you're such a jerk and an ass, then why bother making it work in the first place? You're going to end up breaking someone's heart and hopes again. That's so monstrous. When all the hopes was put on you, all you did was just disregard it? And what was it that you told me about friendship? Huh? You told me to stay true remember? Try to make things work for the better. And you're turning yourself against your words. Do you even hear what you speak? Or you don't care and just giving me PC answers, speak it for the sake of speaking it? I mean.. who the hell are you to be giving me sermons when you yourself is damn inperfect, two-faced backstabber and you don't practice what you preach?? I seriously don't get you. And you seriously need to rethink.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Thanks a lot to those who got me the birthday presents and those who wished me a happy birthday. I love the stuff Nas, Feena and Fitri got for me. Thanks a lot. Oh and I got my Jane Austen novel compilation :) Had dinner with my family. Ate pizza. Gave Idris (my brother) the present I got him(thanks Siti). In case I don't get a chance to blog tomorrow, Happy Birthday Idris <33.
Sighs... believe it or not, I'm sick right now.
EYA results were horrible. Lit, Maths and Geog, the subjects I studied my butt off to improve my GPA. In the end, I got shitass results from them. But whatever, it is over.
I'm out of mood right now...
My Wish
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you wanna go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
Chorus:
But more than anything, more than anything...
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more than you take.
Chorus:
But More than anything, yeah, more than anything...
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
Yeah. My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
Some little motivation for myself... and this is for you too..
You forgot didn't you?

Thursday, October 18, 2007

K.. raya so far..
we went solat raya at the padang near my place. k, not so near la.. it's like 15 min walk away from my place and that's if u chiong. then there was sharahan (it's tt how it's spelt?) and i didn't know i fell asleep but my mum was nudging me awake. but i could hear what the ustaz was saying. about how we should appreciate bulan ramadhan and bulan syawal, the significance of aidilfitri, and also about the benefits of fasting with relation to islam's identity. then balik and tido!!!! the afternoon we ate turkey. like turkey on raya?? it's weird la cos it's my first time eating turkey anyway.. my mum was like "this yr's raya, we go western" and i'm like okayye..? she ordered turkey from canadian.
then it rained. so we waited like till petang for the rain to stop. then, went to yayi's place and saw bibi and kak siti, kak mina and kak mimi (my cuzzies) there. Then yeah.. paman yunus was there too with bi' ani and fazlin and abang faizal and ihsan, he's so cute!! and so big now..mulut dah pandai cakap dah, ada laser pulak tu... abang faizal's like damn tan now ah cos of n.s. then after that, we went to paman yunus' place. we took bus frm yayi's place. but abg faizal rode on his bike. and i'm like wow mann.. his bike is hot!! like motorbike, motorcycle and not bicycle.. damn cool..
Then from there, we, as in with paman yunus and family also, went to paman harun's place. oh mann.. there was nice food!!! and damn pedas la..the ayam masak merah.. but it was nice.. :) always like bi's cooking. anyway.. damn sad la.. my cuz, paman harun's son was away at n.s. so didn't get to see him.
then we called it a day.. yep.
then the next day, auntie tom came with uncle azman and my cuzzies too!! sarah is freaking tall!!! could pass off ama o.O.. then there's hanis.. so cool, she plays the drums too! then there was isyak and kak nadia.. NYAHAHA i'm taller than kak nadia. then they ate the turkey.. it's like so big, my family makan tak habis the day before so hehe simpan the leftovers then let my cuzs eat for lunch.. then they went to paman samad's place. then at abt 2 pm, abang yazid came to my place with his wife and kids. oh mann!! danial is almost as tall as me now.. and he's p6. pfft... anyway, wish him luck for his PSLE results.. it was pretty sad then.. as in abg yazid's wife was complaining about him. see.. abg yazid's relationship with his dad, who's my uncle, who's my mum's brother, was weird. basically, they avoid each other whenever possible. and my mum was advising abg yazid that whatever happens, he's still abg yazid's dad and he should visit my uncle even if it's 5 min per visit. and somemore, it's raya.. well, no doubt my uncle still has his ego.. he wouldn't tell abg yazid whenever he comes hme cos my uncle, he stays in indon. so when he cmes back to s'pore, he wouldn't tell abg yazid. oh well.. and to be honest, i cnt rmbr how my uncle looks like..
then we went to my neighbour's open house. i had to struggle not to eat. i saw my parents and my abang eat like oh mannn... and there's like ayam masak merah and sambal telur.. and like other nice nice stuff.. but idris and me, we rata the satey. wee!!! we also watched lakehouse at my neighbour's house with mastura.
then malam.. oh mann.. my dad got a call frm cik rahmat and uncle charley, saying they wanna cme over. so my mum and i prepare the drinks and stuff. wahh.. then sekali got a call from my cuz and they wanna cme over too! niway, they came before cik rahmat and uncle charley came. the house was like jam-packed!
k, there was...
my cuz, kak juli and abang sudirman but we just call him abg man with danish and oh shoot.. i forget my neice's name.
then there was kak shasha and kak jina a.k.a. sandra bullocks. haha! she really look like sandra bullocks.
then paman samad and cik aida, with my cuzzies, haider, aqid, sabrina, and the little boy who's name is kinda too long and i cnt rmbr.. woops.. and also ashraf. it's been really long since i saw him. we were kinda close then. then, idk what happened but i think the last tym i saw him was when i was in lower pri. and it's kinda sad cos i don't think he rmbrs me as his cuz cos he salam-ed me even tho we're in the same age.
the there's abg hai and his wife (who's indon and dutch and dunno what else.. cool eh?) and their kid..
then cik rahmat and his family and uncle charley with his family. imagine.. uncle charley's daughters' names are nadia and diana. cool much??
my mum and me, we were rushing to serve dinner and pour more drinks and making sure there's enough kuih.. and everyone was spread across both halls. i was like running here and there trying not to stumble over my baby cuz and nephews and nieces cos man they're really small. and my dearest two brother, what did they do??? main game..main drum.. like wth?? dnt say kitchen work is only for females..
and i can't believe abg man can play the drum. we had a mini concert. haha! abg man totally rocked the house! hehe.. tak nak balik pulak tuu!! then everyone was like 'encore!' hehe.. lucky sia my neighbours up and down berderet org melayu so they go beraya. then they won't get distrub by our racket.
then, i wished abg hai a happy advanced birthday!! wee!! he's birthday is on 20th which is the same day as mine too!! cool!!
then on the nxt day, auntie asia with her hubby and kak radiah came over.. so long havent seen them. rindu jugak.. hehe X) oh wells.. since they took care of me and my abg when we were small cos my mum used to work.
aite.. that's all for now.. posting results tmr when i get back everything.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Wow.. when we were all mugging like mad.. now exams are over and tomorrow's raya already. wow mann.. time flies. but i realy dnt have tt raya mood. my mum's bugging me to clean up my room but i'm like wtev la.. cant be bothered la.. not lyk they gonna eat and watev at my rm right..
k, i think EOYs was ok.. but the paper that i regreted most was maths. i mean, wth?? didn't do 2 qs so 11 marks gone. erm.. i was hoping my hist will turn out ok cos i dunno if i had explain enough. i was hoping geog will pull me up but seeing how the paper is so shit... im putting my hopes on lit which i think it shld be ok la.. as in im not expecting to get A but at least a B or a C.
then today had to go to sch for choral speaking rehearsal. it was stupid. i mean, it's like we stayed there for 1 hr listening to the teacher talk and she gave plenty of tips. i mean it's kinda cool but it's pretty stupid to attend smthg for only 1 hr. i take more than 1 hr to travel to sch. i bet the enthu ppl like cheryl lee, rachel and trisha would want us to get in. i mean we got in for RBD and national day concert so i guess they want us to get in for drama night. then it'd be like complete. and then there's netball carn. so i hope our class will do fine.
oh mann i still rmbr last yr!! woots!! go 105'06!! netball carn champs!! woots! k, i didn't play for the class but i helped paint the banner which i forgot won which place. nat goh just rocks at art! haha. then on the day we painted the banner, we ended up dancing in class. afiqah rocks man! haha. we went youtube then played songs. then we danced hip hop. the routine that the teacher taught us. and also the HSM we're all in this together. lols!! was being pretty childish.
then wow mann.. complete sia.. drama night we won 2nd place. cool much?? hehe.. i played J.K. Rowling. haha.. what British accent i had to try to make up but it was screwed in the end. so i kinda speak in my normal way.
oh haha! i still rmbred we kinda prank mr sekhar. we told him we lost netball carn. then farah or dunno who called him. wahh.. then the voice all depressed sia. then he came rushing to our class. then everyone was pretending to be so sad liddat.. he actually believed us! then suddenly everybody laughed and we started screaming and jumping and he's like 'what?what?' haha then we were all like screaming 'we won!' lawls... but after that our rehearsal for drama night was pretty screwed cos everyone was tired by then. but it was cool... love 105'06 forevery!!!
k, so today.. was otw to sch for the choral speaking thing. it's dumb la.. who wanna do choral speaking? if it's like skit or smthg at least it won't be too bad i guess. but choral speaking?!?! and using merchant of venice somemore.. wth??
oh mann.. just now was weird. was gg to sch. then there was this guy standing at the escalator at orchard boulevard. he was handing out newspapers. then i saw the title was 'my paper' so i just took it. then otw up the escalator,i opened it up and guess what... it was in chinese. lol..
then, saw the 190 bus so i ran for it. the bus wasn't moving. there was a bus in front of it. so i just crossed the road to the bus stop by running in btwn the buses then waved to the uncle. then he opened the door so i went in. then saw vivien then i sat nxt to her. then we talk la.. we were like complaining. it's damn dumb to make us come back for 1 hr. they shld have it like ytd aft maths paper. i mean maths finished at 9.30 la.. it's still way in the morning. they got the whole bloody afternoon. then bus reach sch already. then alighted. then saw mr lim as in lim pia leong. then i greeted him la.. like 'morning mr lim'. oh mann.. i still find it awkward seeing him cos last yr he was like giving me this heart-to-heart talk. it was suppose to be la but i didn't wanna open up so yea.. then after greeting so vivien and i just walk on. then suddenly he came to me and said 'next time don't run in between buses' i'm like oh shit!! so embarased la! he saw like wth?? vivien didn't know what he was talking abt so i told her what i did then she was like 'oh...' haiz..
k, im darn bored right now.. oh man. have to clean my rm then wash shoes. i think im gonna have another shower. so hot sia..
to all muslims... since i wouldn't have time to blog tmr..
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MINAL WAFAIZIN
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN
i hoped i spelt it right. k.. rmbr not to eat too much kuih or drink too much sweet drinks. wouldn't want to grow horizontally. XD

Saturday, October 6, 2007

All this time- Simon Webbe
After all, the broken stones
That were thrown, for no good reason
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time
And though her heart begs the stars
No sign of healing,It's All right
She's loving him still, after all this time.
Oh yeah
[Chorus:]
Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of their pride, pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She ain't breaking, breaking, breaking
'Cause she's loving him still, after all this time
Now he knows his weakness shows
Selfish soul, never changing
That's fine, because she's loving him still
After all this time
And to the outside eye
You see a family getting by
And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it
'Cause she's loving him still, after all this time.
[Chorus]
After all this time...
After all, after all, after all this time
Bones have to grow, and age it shows
Though we try and hide it
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time
And behind his tired eyes, she sees the boy with his arms wide
Who made her feel like an angel
Oh that's why she's loving him still
For the rest of her life, she's loving him still
For the last of many miles
She's loving him still
After all this time
~~~~~~~~~~~~
This song just makes me think about some things and some people.
Let october pass by fast.
A small hope that will go amiss. sighs...

Friday, October 5, 2007

I think Miley Cyrus just rocks! Man.. my brother doesn't like her songs. But it's like super nice! Fine.. maybe we have different tastes but i think Miley Cyrus has talent. Some of her songs are not really to my taste but the ones that i like.. how can abang say it's not nice?? pfft...
Niwaes.. on tuesday, we recorded our voices for music. sucks i tell you.. we all had micro-phobia. like microphone phobia. haha.. trust nina to come up with 'mico-phobia'. she always has cute ideas. niwaes.. mr lim took over mr kok. and we recorded our voice. maybe it's just nervousness or what cos without the mic, everyone sounded perfectly fine. as in some of their voices are like wow. but with the mic, even emily sounded flat. and imagine my voice.. lols..
I think mr lim simply rock my socks! he can play the piano like wow.. talk about being proooodddeddd mann!! he's been in the music industry for 20 years or so. and to imagine he hated piano at first. his aunt was his teacher. haha! he said he used to compose and write music for the taiwanese singers but he didn't always get his songs sold. so now he has his own business where he help artiste do a demo. basically what we did in class. cool right??
and except for our voices i think our songs are really nice like emily's group's song. it's really really wow.. but erm.. haha.. the voices kinda ruin everything. but apart from that, it's damn damn nice!! when i played the songs on my comp, my brothers just had to walk in and go 'what's this noise?' and they were commenting how our voices all sumbang. please la.. it's not that we are professinal singers right.. u wanna harp on bad voices, harp on hudgens' voice. oh well.. some might say she rocks. i think NOT! and her songs don't appeal to my taste. niwaes.. my abang was like 'if u know u can't sing, then don't sing la..' wtf.. it's not like we had a choice. we were practically FORCED to sing by mr lim cann?? if we had a choice, we would run out of class.. talk about spoilers.. it's not like it's easy to compose a song. and i doubt they could compose anything almost as good as ours within a short period of time. HAH! that shut them up. *grins*
but we couldn't have done it without mr kok and mr lim. oh mann.. no more music next yr.. spoiler much..! urgh..
so thurs we had philo and english. english like totally screwed up.. it's almost ok. but it's still screwed up. philo was ok. damn.. philo class u can fall asleep. philo exam also u wanna fall asleep! dunno what's up with philo and sleeping.. best pals. but philo can be interesting.. at times.. philo should make friends with ms r. XD
and today we had mly compo and geog. mly was ok.. but i kinda missed the point. sidetracked a bit. geog is stupid can?? the questions are like so vague. we don't know what they're looking for. in the end, it doesn't matter how well we revised cos we can't understand those darn questions!! so most of us like just shoot in any answers we think is what they're looking for. and the percentage thing is bloody stupid!! have to calculate this and that. it's so sian i tell u! in the end, i spent like 20 minutes on that bloody question and it only hold 4 marks. idiotic much??
so now... mugging lit.. and history. yep.4 down 5 to go.. hold on tight people! we're in for a ride! yee-haaaaaaaaaahhhh! lols.. and mr chang said 'enjoy your EOYs' like who will? uh nuh-uh! XD attitude people.. attitude..
oh.. haha.. my brother shared this joke with the family. it's cute. come on.. primary school kids.. hehe
my brother, idris:
how do u spell 'blind pig'?
us:
erm.. b-l-i-n-d p-i-g?
idris:
no..
us:
erm..?
idris:
it's b-l-n-d p-g. cos if there's 2 'i's, the pig won't be blind!!
get it?? haha corny much..
and then there's what starts with an 'e' and ends with an 'e' and has a letter inside?
ans: envelope!
haha.. we were all like 'eye??'
toodle-doo! i have some mugging to do!