CIP @ RI

RI is damn nice!!! Yes, Raffles Institution... The field is really really cool... :) The buildings are so nice too... The place is so home-like.. It felt like that.. maybe cos the architecture of the buildings make the school look majestic but the spacing between the buildings seem to make it look friendlier cos it's not so crammed up.. So it's a nice combination..
CIP was fun!!! I was in group hijau! Yeah!! Sara, Insyirah, Rafhanah, Sarah (from RGS.. duh! :D) and Said, Fitri, Rifqi and Hafeez (from RI.. even more duh!) was also in kumpulan hijau.. The guys are cool.. really sporting and friendly with the kids... kesian seh diorang.. the kids kept on asking for piggy back rides.. so the guys were carrying the little kiddies on the back as we move around in RI from one place to another.
We had station games first. So we went to the different stations to play.. there's gasing station, dikir, tarian, drama, permainan kampung, sepak takraw.. so the kids and facilitators (us!) are suppose to learn how to do the things at the diff staions and get points based on our performance.. the kids were really enthu and so are we! the guys not so.. but i guess they got warmed up after giving the kids piggy back rides.. haha!
The we had this race thing.. facilitators couldn't join.. but it was so fun to see the kids play.. and we were shouting encouragements all the while.. there was different stations for the race where at each station they had to do something.. at the start, they had to spin around 10 times (we played after lunch.. wOah.. and the kids survived) then at the next station they had to do ketuk ketampi then do duck walk to the next station where they had to jump rope.. and run to the last station where they were suppose to take an item.. when everyone has gone through the whole thing, we had to dress up someone with the items we got which was stuff like paperplates, plastic bag, some cone shape things, newspaper, tape.. so we dressed up huzaimy.. he look damn cute! and there was this apollo box which we put in on his head.. and we all start calling apollo man!
Then we had captain balls game.. we lost only one game.. we were against kumpulan kuning.. what the hell... for the captain balls, the kids play and about 2 facillitators are allowed to play as well... when we were against kumpulan kuning, sarah and i were playing for our team and alimi and ashraf (i dunno how to spell..) was playing for kumpulan kuning.. what the shitz.. alimi is a rugger for god's sake... and so is the other dude i think.. they can throw bloody far sia.. so we lost to their team.. and most unfortunate, Huzaimy got injured cos someone fall on him.. so i attended to him as well as other redcrossers and when kumpulan hijau was worrying abt him, we didn't continue playing so the time just continue running and then ama said over the microphone 'the game will end in 5,4,3,2,1!' and we just lost.. 1, 0.. but we won the rest of the games.. thanks to fitri... he's damn tall.. he just stood in front of the captain and he blocked the person completely.. we couldn't even see the person behind him.
then we had a 3 legged race.. that was damn screwed up... sry to alimi who organized it.. but it was messy.. unclear instructions.. and lack of ropes.. but we improvised or rather alimi improvised and we managed to play it real well... i'm a bit confused lah.. alimi is suppose to be a facist for kumpulan kuning and he was also the station master for both drama and 3 legged race.. dude... thought you were suppose to just stick to kumpulan kuning? i mean yeah you were there during captain's ball to play for your team... and i'm a bit confused with my grp too... more RI dudes suddenly join our team... i'm like were you guys suppose to be here in the first place?
in the end, we got 2nd place for overall!! yeah... and whateverlah... kumpulan kuning got 1st place... haha.. but the main thing is that we all had fun! and i gained more contacts.. yeah with some RI dudes.. just those in kumpulan hijau... duh...
omg.. Said is such an abang like person... he was like 'jangan lari! baik-baik kereta!' he was so patient sia... unlike me..i felt so bad.. i split up the kiddies because they were not paying attention during drama cos they were talking... and i kinda scolded 2 of them cos they wouldn't stand still... oops.. i shall try to be like Said... and be more patient..
Said is a prefect... jaw drops.. haha.. but it was quite obvious... he's so like budak baik.. he's GPA last year was 3.5+... what the shitz.. and he's the eldest and he has 3 younger siblings... no wonder he's so brotherly to the kids and even to us.. his youngest sibling is only 8 years old... he's very lembut also... as in the way he talks and everything.. he's a tracker... expected him to be a rugger.. he told me he shld be in rugby but he put track as his first choice and now he's a jumper. and he's a nice dude.. he was offering sits to us girls.. he knows how to talk lah... with the kids.. and he's quite good looking too.. cute.. haha... and he wanna be a pilot, 2nd choice is a sociologist (like me!).. and rifqi kept on irritating sarah.. haha.. they're cousins.. they look damn cute lah... they were squabbling.. then the kids keep on irritating sarah too cos they sided with rifqi.. haha..
CIP was fun. can't believe i'm saying this.. yeah and did i mention RI is seriously a nice place? let's be a guy and study in RI.. haha... the school quite slack.. like they can use their hp and mp3 anywhere in school.. like anywhere.. cool... Said was like saying how he finds RGS very strict and thinks that it's unneccesary.. haha.. he's a prefect but he doesn't book people.. and prefects in their school wear black shoes... i think something like S.A....
so that's basically what happened ytd.. oh and i went to macdonalds with dewi and sara.. i just ate strawberry sundae... i find it always cheer me up :) cos i was a bit down that i had to leave RI cos the place is like awesome! Oh.. and while we had our CIP, there was a football match btwn RJ and VJ.. would have watch it but we had to be facist so yeah... yeah RI is awesome.. not the people in it.. haha... i guess some are ok.. and some of the dudes look so mat. they don't really have that intellectual guai look on their faces.. haha
while in mac, people keep on knocking my head.. :/ and i was clumsy on the way home.. i missed a step, swung on the handle in the train, knocked the metal pole... oh god.. and dewi and sara laughed at me :/

thursday

Biology test was seriously shit... I don't think I'll fail but I'll get borderline marks or something... At least I studied... didn't have enough time to check and i was quite panicky.. let bygones be bygones maths is finally taking a break... phew... and and i manage to get my graphs right... and trigonometry is doing well for me... i think
so yesterday had rehearsal... at my house... it was damn cram lah... 10 people... what the hell.. there was enough space cos we spread to both halls but when we had a combined prac... oh god... we're all so cram inside hall no.2.
the prac was supposed to start at 5 but in the end, we start at 6.15 or so... the girls went to my place first cos siti knows the way so yeah... and hamizah, hazly, khai and me waited for fird and omar cos they were late... at least they come.. what the hell.. all the way from tampines..
so at my place we basically synchro and the guys had trouble with posture especially khai whom siti and miza commented that his butt was jutting out and omar is too tall that he looked weird when he bent down. quote from fird 'khai macam beruk'. haha... shan't be mean..
then we rehearsed till abt 8 or so and we had dinner... my mum was nice enough to cook... omg.. for 10 ppl (10 is excluding me).. it was simple but nice.. and feena shld stop her dieting nonsense.. she's already so thin.. diy and lena had to feed feena cos she wouldn't eat... and the rest finished the meal.. it was wet fried noodles.. i hope they liked it.. would have cooked for them if my mum hadn't already volunteered to cook.. i was suppose to do it but whateverlah.. yeah.. made them drinks... let's see what else happened.. actually i wouldn't know cos i was in the kitchen washing up the plates and cups and forks while khai finished my noodles.. he was hungry so i just gave him my portion which miza said he didn't finish and in the end, miza finished it i think.. i didn't eat the whole of thursday.. actually i did but it wasn't proper meals.. i just took some food from friends during recess and had a light snack (banana pancakes..) in the afternoon but i didn't really eat the whole day..
then solat.. then the guys wanted to jam.. by the time we finished dinner my dad and brother came home already.. so fird and khai played the guitar and my brother played the drums.. but it wasn't synchro.. bayangan gurauan.. jiwang seh.. haha.. yeah it's a nice song.. then after my brother went ngaji.. stupid.. i had to treat him $2.. i intended to save money to buy some albums.. can't ask my dad for money already.. okok so then, we asked fird and khai to demo what they do for NUS dikir.. omg... it's damn cute lah... we all wanna join NUS dikir but the problem is the rehearsal dates... if it's a saturday then i'm bloody shit.. damn it.. shld have changed my madrasah day to sunday.. stupid sia.. and omg.. khai and fird has nice voice...!!! haha.. miza, feena and i has been attempting to do dikir in class.. and feena hasn't gone beyond the stage of clapping.. shld pester cikgu to have dikir next year.. yeah we shld seriously pester cikgu abt it.. it's stupid that dikir is canceled to make way for penerbitan.. penerbitan is like dead now... there's no point carrying on with it
then at about 9 or so, the guys and girls left and i was suppose to walk them to causeway pt. as we were reaching causeway pt, i got triggered by cigarette smoke and they were worried cos my breathing was hard and irregular so in the end, siti sent me home.. the rest had to go off already.. what the hell.. i was suppose to see them off.. it was damn scary the way they reacted.. especially siti and fird...
at first, they told me that they can just carry on from there after my breathing went back to almost normal so i shld go home and sms them when i'm home.. so i said ok and watch them cross the road and walk towards causeway pt. and then i started coughing again and i leaned against a tree and they all saw and ran back.. someone was shouting my name.. i'm a bit -_-" i'm seriously more concerned abt them worrying abt me then my own health at that pt of time cos i seriously didn't wanna trouble them.. then fird, khai and siti debated abt someone sending me home. the rest just go home first. so in the end siti sent me home.. fird had to go off cos he lives in tampines and he had to travel a long way and he had to reach home by a certain time so yeah.. kesian seh.. and khai was shuffling btwn either sending me home or not but in the end he went off with fird. i was really relieved that he didn't send me home cos then it'll be one person less i'm troubling.. i feel so fragile.. what the hell.. so siti send me home and i smsed fird to say that i'm fine when i reached home..
i hope i don't trigger again.. khai and fird was so abang-like to me yesterday and siti is like my 'kakak'.. haha.. shocked me the way they reacted..
reading harry potter book now.. i better finish it tonight cos my brother wants to lend it to his friend tmr..

boring...

I seriously don't know what to blog about except for rehearsals...
So on sunday, we had another rehearsal... We did quite a lot more and it was difficult for kak faizah to continue cos there was 3 people missing. In the end she was like 'whatever... we just put them somewhere'. We practiced and yeah, the abangs and kakaks were there... embarassing.. And we choreo another 3 sets of 8, got another formation right and just practiced within 2 hours or so...
Then, went to macs again... Feena and I wore selendang after the rehearsal. We changed out of our tshirt and long pants.. Feena decided to wear selendang cos she said her hair was in ruin and me cos I usually go out with selendang unless i'm going to somewhere where selendang will be a hazard like outdoor activities etc. The guys were kinda shock cos it was the first time they saw us in selendang... So went to macs. Fird, Feena and Lena got balloons and Feena and Lena started corrupting their minds. Miza ate with us but left earlier to meet her friend. And Fird and Omar went home by bus then train i think. Feena, Lena, Khai and I went back by 963. But Khai and I alighted first cos I wanted to go to masjid to solat maghrib or I'll miss it cos after that I have piano lesson and there isn't time for me to go home... I don't even wanna go home... Except for my room, my home is more like a house...
Then Khai and I walked to masjid al-Iman. I thought he left already cos I didn't see him after I finished solat. So, I left masjid first. Then Khai serbu me from behind. Apparently, he waited for me... he solat sekali... and when he didn't see me coming down from dewan perempuan he wanted to sms me... that's when he saw me walking out of the masjid. Then he showed me how to go home but i went for piano lessons and then he went the other way to his home. And he burst Fird's balloon...
Then piano... it was ok... I didn't even practiced... exam is this coming tuesday... yeah... get to skip half of school...
I feel dead now... cos they killed my joy and I can't be bothered to layan anyone now... Waiting for them to get the picture... man they're slow... unless my hints are that not obvious. Hell, i'm tired of waiting... i'll just follow my mum's advice and find something else to fill up my time and loneliness..
the song gallery by mario vazquez is nice.. should listen to it and read the lyrics too...
yesterday, my dad was like 'why are you so happy?' i was like 'huh?' cos i felt neutral... he was like 'usually when you get home, you're always so tired and moody. then now you're like not tired at all'. i guess he's quite right. haha... even my aunt commented that i look so moody and tired. but that day.. adalah.. haha... and today i'm back to my moody and tired self... hope music will revive me. i can't live without my mp3.

Racial Harmony Day, rehearsal, yesterday life science business comp

Racial Harmony Day today... went to school in kebaya and long pants... i find skirt irritating :) lend Wen Jing my baju punjabi and then reported at the malay booth for permainan tradisional (malay tradisional games).. we were suppose to be in charge of it. we focused on congkak and ketupat making... haha... i can anyam ketupat! :) it was ok... but didn't realise a lot of ppl would be interested in making ketupats... Afiqah, Lena and I were damn exhausted cos we had to teach and reteach a lot of ppl for the ketupat making cos it's quite fiddly to be handling the ribbons and it's not that easy to make... They taught more ppl than me cos I was handling the congkak and they were handling the ketupat making... then more ppl wanted to learn how to make the ketupat so I had to help... and it turns out that most ppl actually already know how to play the congkak so I almost had basically nothing to do... We couldnt participate in other games and activities that were planned for all sec 2s... so sad... Then for the concert, we had a dance competition between some sec 3 classes. Some were ok... but 306 was damn damn nice!!! cos it was cute and it had a storyline which others didn't show in their dance... and 306 won the competition!
Then, this afternoon, we had a rehearsal in our school in the gym... Hamizah and I fetched the SA guys (Firdauz, Hazly and Omar) from the busstop opposite school... They said our school is big... I thought it was pathetic.. oh wells... The rehearsal went ok I guess.. We just practiced what we had cos the instructor couldn't make it... And we manage to teach Hazly and Omar... so yeah!!! And Firdauz was ok... I just adjusted his posture... other than that he's dancing is ok... Erm... yeah the tarian-ers... apalah.. we had it in rgs cos of them then in the end they prac w us only like 3x or so... Was hoping the other SA guys would come, namely Khai, Jay and Izz but Izz backed out and Jay had rugby and Khai was sick so they didn't come... apalah.. if they came, things would be more merrior...
Then there's practice at bb east cc again this sunday... I hope it'll be better than today's training...
Tired and there's maths to kill me tonight... X/
Yesterday, I went to Ngee Ann Poly for a Life Science Business Competition... It was ok as in some of the projects were super interesting like ACSI's P3 or PitcherPlantsPeople... and Chocosteen (chocolate and mangosteen) by SCGS... but I think ACSI's project is more realistic and more convincing cos their reseach basically covers everything so there was super little for the judges to comment and 'thrash' their projects.. like simon cowell in american idol... haha... P3 was very good. their research was detailed and their statistics were convincing and i think what made them stand out was they actually manage to sell their products at 2 different attempts... and their products got sold out and they have more orders coming in for their products... cool right...
So basically this competition is to research about a problem that is categorised under Life Science. then, they have to find a solution for it and turn their solutions into products to be sold... that's why it's Life Science BUSINESS competition...
RGS didn't get in which proves one thing... Raffles might be our school name and as much as we are so called 'the cream of the crop', we're still humans, learning as we go along... so don't expect us to be the best and winning all the time... i dont like the fact that some ppl view us as 'almighty' cos it's not that true... we were suppose to be intellectually smart but that doesn't mean we don't make bloopers... and that doesn't mean we don't lose sometimes...
ok... maths taking over now...

Tuesday's rehearsal, today

Finally finished my history pt... but it sucks lah... i didn't design it like how my friend detailed the cover to make it look like a torn and tattered journal.. Couldn't be bothered with designing.
We had rehearsal on tueday. I was like 'yes!' ahha... rehearsal has always been so much fun... :) I was down right disappointed when they couldn't get the venue at bb east cc. Luckily abang husni was nice enough to book a space in NUS. But it was seriously so sian have to travel all the way to Clementi from school. Hamizah and I rushed out as soon as the bell rings. Actually we got detained for a while by Cikgu Roziyah but after that we straight away left for rehearsal. I was seriously worried that Abang Husni and Kak Faz are going to get angry that we came late but I thought that at least the guys would be there so it won't be so bad cos then at least Kak Faz can get started with the routine... Turns out that I was the early one... Khai called me and asked if I would want to go there with them. They were still quite far from Clementi and I was at Bukit Batok when he called. And when I've reached Clementi interchange, they were still far... I was quite pissed cos Hamizah and I rushed for nothing... well not really nothing lah... but I expected the guys to be there already since they finished school earlier than us. In the end, I had to wait for them at Clementi interchange. Hamizah meanwhile went to meet a friend at Jurong East first. So I went to meet the guys first.
During the rehearsal, we just perfected what we've learnt so far. We didn't do anything new. Also cos the tarianners would be coming much much later. But I thought we did really well especially the guys. Even Hazly wasn't that bad...
I seriously got quite pissed with the tarianners... Sorrylah... tapi orang dah tunggu berjam masih nak tanya kalau patut datang. Even if we don't really know exactly when the timing was extended to, the least to do is just come asap right... if we were waiting for them, it means that we wanted a rehearsal with them right...? of course we'll make sure they get enough practice too.. takkan nak datang sekejap lepas tu balik... doesn't make sense right... and feena was killing me on the phone saying they wouldn't want to waste their time travelling all the way to clementi if the time is only extended for a short while... girl, i said we'll wait for you. so what does that implies???
While waiting for the tarianners, we basically recap over and over again cos the guys forgot their zapin step. Hamizah and I had to learn the guys' zapin step too and we got it way faster and better than them.. haha! and I taught the guys our lenggang steps. Honestly, they weren't too bad, Khai especially. Maybe cos he had a little bit of tarian background... A bit stiff but they could get the steps right. Haha... what makes me thing they're gonna forget it? Shall be optimistic and say they'll remember it at least until friday...
Then, when the tarianners finally arrived... we (Hamizah and I) taught them the guys' zapin steps and also a new set of choreography that we had come up with and editted by Kak Faz. It was a bit too fast for the tarianners but Kak Faz liked it fast and we all got it in the end. The guys' hip hop steps are damn damn nice... and the song is seriously nice :)
I also baked kuih bantal peluk saloma for the guys... it was for all actually but since the tarianners weren't there yet and abang husni and kak faz were busy with something else... the guys and Miza kebas semua.. haha... glad they liked it :)
So we ended at 8 and we discussed when and where the next practice should be held at until 8.30. I wanted to go to their school but in the end (cos of the tarianner's sake) venue will be at rgs on friday.
Then, the tarianners went home, tumpang kereta diy. Firdauz was using my hp so I couldn't leave yet. Then in the end, I decided to go with them to macs cos I didn't know how to go home. And Miza and Khai were going to macs and they were also taking train home so yeah... i needed them. haha... it was raining quite heavily and we ran through the rain to macs and what do you know... it was closed. So, pissed and tired, we ran all the way back to the bus stop. Belanja Fird air and Khai his bus trip to Clementi mrt station. If I had 60 cents, I could have saved 40 cents cos I gave Khai $1 for the bus trip. But nvm... so we (Khai, Miza and I) went home by MRT. Fird and Hazly took bus.
On the way home, Khai decided to be emo-ish... Haha... But seriously, Khai looked damn emo... He was like folding his hands... looking down... like there's a lot going through his mind... wOah... haha... and he was wearing all black... what impression does that give? seriously emo seh... and we saw his pri sch photo... haha... muka tak sama seh... especially the hair... he look nicer now... his hair in pri sch is too long... tengok punk semacam... haha..
So Khai alighted at Choa Chu Kang. He's like slow... he was on the phone all the way from Bukit Gombak to Choa Chu Kang. He didn't realise we've reached Choa Chu Kang.. All the while as we were reaching Choa Chu Kang, Hamizah and I were waiting to see if he would like put down the phone to say gdbye before alighting or he wouldn't even alight the train. Then, at Choa Chu Kang itself, he put down his phone and just stood there, looking at us. We were like 'Choa Chu Kang...' Khai was like 'ya...' We were giving him a look and he was like 'What?' And rushed out of the train... haha... that was super retarded... But he managed to wave before leaving... haha... then Hamizah and I were laughing all the way to Yew Tee where she alighted and I continued all the way until Woodlands. Then on the bus home from Woodlands mrt station, I met my brother.. when I got home, I switched on the computer and finished and print out my history pt while my brother eat his dinner and talk on the phone. then i ate dinner and took a shower...
And sleep... haiz... maths is depriving me of sleep... i still have maths now but i don't feel like doing it... maybe i should wake up 4 in the morning and do it all the way until 5.15 and then get ready for school...
Omg... I'm so torn between YMC, rehearsal and RedCross... okok... priorities: Rehearsal, YMC, RedCross... and school is taking a toll on all of us...
Hamizah thinks that Khai is crushing on someone... sape eh?
had footdrill accred today... we all passed so yeah for us!!! Only diy hasn't taken her accreds. Today was ok I guess... but I'm so happy I got through today!!! Accreds done... I'm so relieved... then I just have to get through tmrw... then friday RHD!!! no lessons!!! and then rehearsal!!! woots!!! seriously... rehearsal is like the one thing i look forward to this entire wk...
Today, geog was fun... we had to make a model of a river structure... it was nicelah... and before that, i was sleeping during the lesson... apparently i slept for 5 minutes... that's bad... blame maths... i think maths is very nice but when it takes away my sleep, then it becomes a pain in the butt...
Tessa now is our new head prefect... yeah Tessa!!! I voted for her too! :) And Juanmin ma'am is the vice-head :) I voted for her too!! haha... okok... if they can handle responsibilities, so can i...

YMC SEC 1 LAUNCH!!! <333 and rehearsal

Omg.. I can't believe I almost missed YMC sec 1 launch. It was damn damn damn nice... The 1st part is dry with all the speeches and presentations. But the skit was really funny! Haha... gd job Hafidz, Ziyad, Fawwaz, Wisnuh, Miza, Amalina, Maryam and the crescent girls (oops.. forgot their name). And the interactive session was awesome! Ahha!!! omg... Syakir was so panicky before the interactive session... in the end end he and Faatihah did a really good job hosting the session. Some of the sec 1s are not as enthu but some were a bit too hyper.. ahha... so I guess the crowd is pretty balanced.

And omg... I met my pri sch junior. He's freaking tall!!! Way taller than 2 yrs ago.. Omg... I rmbr him frm my last yr in admiralty. He was a prefect too if I'm not wrong. And he's so cute!!! Ahha... omg.. I miss pri sch days... And he's in Evergreen sec. What a waste.. his aggregate was 260!!! He could have appealed to RI but in the end he didnt. At least, he could have gone to Anderson Sec/ BPGHS where the sch is better than Evergreen. Haiz.. what to do if he wants to be in Evergreen. But it's so cool if he's in RI. Then maybe he will be in moore house.. Then in RJC, we'd be in the same house!!! Moore tarbet!!! woots!!!

And during the interactive session, the people was really enthu!!! And a big thanks to Hafidz and the VS guys for helping out by being the crowd boosters! Ahha...

YMC launch was super fun!!! And Syakir was so funny cos he was so tensed and yeah he's a funny guy... I felt lyk hugging him after the launch was over but I didn't... And Shahir and me took pics! But I look stupid and the photo look a bit weird cos I'm a lot shorter than him..so there's this huge space in between our heads...

Wish I could have gone to bahas too... then could have seen RGS vs VS.. and yes we won!!! you go girls! ahha... Could have seen Mahdi too and his brother bahas-ing. But then, I wouldn't see Shahir and I would miss all the fun during the YMC launch... and the eclair is damn nice!!! Should have put ice-cream instead of chocolate cream inside... and Syakir, Haziq, Siti and Faatihah went out together... Could have gone with them but had rehearsal at Bukit Batok East CC again...

Rehearsal was nice... we covered quite a lot more but I think we're not at the pace and level of professionalism the dance instructor wanted us to be at. So now I'm stuck with Jay... ahha... Diy accidently switched partners so now she's with Hazli and Khai is with Feena.. But Jay and I remained partners since last wk and so did Lena and Firdauz.. ahha.. they look cute together...

after the rehearsal, we ate at macs.. didn't really eat much... just a double cheeseburger which i could hardly finish and strawberry sundae! then went home with the guys and miza.. well 1/2 of the way with them cos they alighted earlier and the I went home myself after that.

Miza alighted earlier cos she lives in yew tee area so yar and i was going to woodlands and the guys wanted to take another bus frm where they dropped off to mariana bay to see fireworls. ahha.. i love fireworks!!! they invied me to come along with them, at least khai and firdauz invited me, when the rest disappeared for a while but it's at marina bay. so far and it's like the fireworks start only at night so by the time it'll be like 12am++ when i get home.

Jay has nice eyes and Khai has nice laugh and Firdauz has nice moves.. ahha...

Khai was being super nice again.. he was like 'anything call me eh..' before he left. and on the bus, jay and hazli just stone.. alamak.. cam emo seh... haha.. and jay was wearing that specs, the one with the big frame..and looking out of the window... siapa yang difirkan? haha... then is joined them, being emoish...

so khai and firdauz and miza and myself just talked... random stuff... can't rmbr much of what we talked abt...

haha.. erm that's abt what happened on saturday.. diy would kill to be where i was.. ahha... mayb i shld go home w them agn.. haha.. it's nice cos it's diff than gg home with the girls... mainly cos w the girls, it's typical what type of things they'll be talking abt what with diy and feena and lena would probably stone... and with the guys, ada saja lawaklah yang diorang buat.. haha

I just might come for YMC after all! Yeah! Haha...

Some of my favourite lines/quotes/verses:

I don't know I don't care I just wanna let it go...

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And then I see you shy...

You wanna hide...

Baby I can make you fly (I can make you fly)

See baby I'm not bad...

So don't be scared...

...(I don't know the last line)

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Bulan jatuh ke bumi ku tetap akan bersungguh-sungguh

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Maybe if we met each other under a different sky...

Maybe things will be much better between you and I...

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Biar waktu mengubat rindu...

Tiada ku mencari sebarang penawar pilu

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And I'm not gonna let you down...

Darling wait and see

And between now and then...

Till I see you again

I'll be loving you...

Love me

These are just some... There's others more... Basically these are lyrics from different songs...

I need someone to make me smile again... ahha... a bit desperate... don't want to be in this moody feeling forever...

Someone said I have a nice smile... But there's yet for someone to really make me smile...

If I melt over you... solidify me again... ahha...

YMC launch prep

I feel so irritated... As much as I try to always set my priorities right, I still barely manage myself and the things I have to do.

Things have seriously started taking a toll on me. It's almost 12am now and I'm really suppose to be doing my work but I just need to let this out... I guess I have to thank my mum for preventing me from joining tarian or my schedule will be damn hectic, worse than my schedule now.

We had YMC just now and I was damn pissed off at the guys cos they keep digressing and we were getting to nowhere until almost the end. I kind of lost my temper and I felt really bad. I know I always have a trouble with my temper. Sometimes people might say that I'm too sensitive and that I should try to stop getting so worked up over small issues. One thing to clarify, if it's really a small issue, I won't give shit and just keep to myself. I only show my feelings when it really matters. And there's just some things that I just don't tolerate...

If anyone thinks I fly my top easily then you guys really don't the limit of my patience. One thing about me, I keep a lot of things to myself... example... crushes... personal problems... almost everything. my brother always tries to encourage me to talk more but I don't want to be like some asshole always talking about MY problems all the time and expecting others to listen... That's really self-centered. And just cos some people had to be that way doesn't mean that I too have to be that way.

Some people also think that I'm not quite straight since I don't talk about guys and being in an all girls' school might have that impression that it had swerved me from being 'normal'. I just don't want to be seen like some despo who goes on and on about guys...

And I guess I'm rather particular about keeping my mouth shut. I don't want to call others self-centered, always wrapped up in their problems when I myself keep telling others my feelings, my problems and my thoughts. Sometimes I share but never about personal stuff until only recently to Siti. Even then it's rather awkward.

So seriously, I don't talk about myself not cos I'm like problem-free but I just don't want to be someone irritating. And being taken advantage just cos I rather listen to other's problem than talking abt my problems, it just annoys me. And what the hell, if u always compress feelings in yourself won't u urself fly ur top?!?!?!

I also got pissed off cos I felt damn useless cos I'm not going to be there for YMC this saturday. I really wanna be there but well, other things take more priority. And I'm damn pissed that I have to make decisions between things that are so important like this week there'll be madrasah, YMC, bahas and redcross. Which one am I suppose to go for??? And I'm like damn pissed cos I have to skip madrasah this whole month. Damn it lah... and I'm sitting for my test quite soon I think. And my mum had to pay the fees and $20 is like just gone cos I didn't go for any madrasah sessions.

I guess not all things go the way you want it to turn out...

But I have quite high hopes that this week's launch will turn out great if everyone put in their 100%. I wish I could put in all my commitment too.

I don't know I don't care I just wanna let it go...

Bahas, rehearsal, NUS bbq

Yesterday, there was bahas(debate) against crescent girls' sec sch... the topic was interesting. erm.. it was something like 'penyejagatan boleh _____ penjajahan nilai'. so it means that globalisation can cause our values to be demoralised.. something like that.. well, my malay isn't that good.

The venue was at Tampines JC which is super far from my home. By train, it will take 1 1/2 hr journey.. Feena made a promised to the juniors to go with them by train so she had to go with them to TPJC. Me, I went with Sahail to TPJC.. ahha... Actually Sahail asked me to go with him but I told him I might be going with Feena. And Feena asked me to ask him if he would want to come with us and the juniors. But Sahail didn't want to cos he has trouble waking up and he doesn't like being surrounded by girls... so in the end, Feena was quite pissed that she couldn't go with Sahail as she already promised the juniors. I was a bit amused at how Feena made a small thing so complicated. Then, on the phone she told me she pitied Sahail that he would have to go alone. And I volunteered to go with him since I never made any promises to the juniors and it was only a 'maybe' that I would go with Feena and the juniors.. So yeah, Sahail and I went to TPJC together. We took bus but left later and reached way earlier than Feena and the juniors.

The trip to TPJC was really nice cause Sahail and I talked and since I didn't really know Sahail well so now, I kind of learnt a bit of who he is I guess.. But anyway, it was nice going with him to TPJC.. He made me smile and laugh. haha... Sahail is funny and sweet guy but can be irritating too like how he was late for 1/2 hr! haha... and he has nice eyes, he was wearing contact lenses.. but with specs, he look like a good student, the study type of person. ahha... On the way, Sahail was trying to explain to me rugby.. haha... cos he wanted to explain why he wanted to enter RJC by DSA rugby. He told me that RI rugby team (sec 3 lvl) had lousy defence so if he could be in RJC, he could help them be better cos he's a defender. ahha...

And Sahail is apparently disgusted by cockroachers. Haha.. I too get disgusted by cockroaches but the way he freaked out, it was so amusing that I laughed and then I felt quite bad for laughing at him. Oh well...

So when we reached TPJC, we went inside the venue which is at a lecture theatre for the debate. Sahail went to sit alone at the right side of the room. RGS girls was sitting in the middle so I had to go to the middle too. Then, Azira didn't know how to go to the theatre and I went to fetched her at the main gate and show her the way to the lecture theatre. Then, Siti called me cos she didn't know how to get to the lecture theatre. Since she hasn't even reached the school, I had to wait at the main gate until she came and then we ran all the way to the lecture theatre. By then, the bahas was on the way and obviously we couldn't go to where the RGS girls were because then we would have to cross the room to get to the middle. And that is so embarassing and rude cos people would want to watch the bahas right.. So in the end, we sat next to Sahail. Haha... kesian dia duduk serorang.

Then me, Feena and Amalina had to go off right after the debate or we would be late for a rehearsal. So I told Sahail we had to go off already and he was quite sweet how he said 'Oh ok... bye!' and waved. And I thanked him cos I was totally relying on his sense of direction as we went to TPJC cos I only know how to get there by train and we went there by bus. He was nice about it and he nodded, smiling and I waved to Khairul before leaving. Khairul seems taller.. haha..

So, at the rehearsal, we met the St. Andrews guys and then we started rehearsing. For the rgs girls, it was our 1st time there but the St. Andrews guys had gone for the 1st rehearsal so this was their 2nd. We warmed up, did everything that the dance instructor told us to do and we practiced a choreography done by her. We did quite a lot i gues within 3 hrs. Feena, Amalina and Hamizah left in the middle of the rehearsal, where we haven't even got to the part of the routine. So, we would have to teach them at school or something or they would be so lost the next time we have a rehearsal. In the end, it was tiring.. and I didn't eat lunch and the rehearsal was at 12.30 all the way to 3.30 or so... I just ate breakfast which was at 7 am. And since we had to rush from TPJC all the way to Bukit Batok east CC for the rehearsal, there was no time to eat. Strangely, I wasn't that hungry.

Then, together, we went all the way back to the east again for the NUS bbq. I was quite pissed cos I had to travel a lot that day. From the north (my home) all the way to TPJC which is in the east, all the way to rehearsal which is in the west and back again to East Coast Park which is in the east. But the journey to ECP (east coast park) was ok.. I slept in the bus. I was damn tired I didn't talk to anyone. Not even Diy and Lena who had stayed throughout the entire rehearsal and also went for the bbq. We did a lot of walking cos we missed the bus stop and went ahead by 1 stop. So we walked back. The distance between the stops was damn far... It was rather tiring but at least refreshing. It woke me up a bit. Haha.. the sleep on the bus wasn't enough. It was amusing how the guys, being guys, fooled aroung and laugh and do whatever they did.

So we walked a L O N G W A Y to the bbq pit. Then, we talked and eat. The food was nice. The guys started to play soccer. After eating, I sat on the beach with a cocktail where it was a bit grassy and admired the sunset. It was really nice... And listening to the waves is very soothing and it was really windy. Everything was like so calm and relax and sincere. Haiz... if the sand is whiter, if the shores are cleaner, if the blue is clearer, ECP would be one of the most romantic places in Singapore.. haha... I guess...

During the night, we played.. dog and bone, the guys played against the girls but I didn't play in that. After that, we played card games, it was damn fun and we laughed and eat more... and omg!!! the roasted marshmallows are like heaven! ahha... We just had a one heck of a time there. There's no other way I should describe it. I wish Hariz was there too.

Then at about almost 10, I tumpang diy's family car and they send me home. I felt quite bad cos I was taking up space and they had to pick up her brother and his fiance (i think). Diy's brother is quite good looking and his fiance is very pretty so together, they look like one angelic couple. ahha...

Before leaving, I asked Khai for his contact. Surprisingly, Khai was quite nice about me asking his contact. Previously whenever I wanted a contact of a guy (just to keep in contact...) and when I asked him for it, he would ask why before telling me.. and Khai was sweet about it and erm.. gentle (?). he was like 'oh.. sure... just take my number lah...' and when i asked for his email, he was like 'ok... khai... spelled as k, h, a, i... dash, not underscore tau dash.. rulez. r, u, l, e, z 93'.. I was quite surprised cos never has a guy talk to me in such a gentle tone before... Haha... And when I confirmed with him his email, he was like 'yup!' haha..

We should have more of this kind of stuf.. It was fun though tiring... i wouldn't mind coming again if they're organizing another bbq.

SPM

Today had SPM... so went to help out... had to wear the school tie... stupid thing... before that Siti, feena and i went to Far East cos Siti wanted to buy a string and ring where she would make a choker to replace the one that she lost. She wants to wear that to tomorrow's YMC.. and she showed me what top she's going to wear too.. Haha.. it's really nice... cos it's stripes! lawls... and feena got some nice blue hairband and black bangle.. also to wear for tomorrow's bahas... walao... they all lyk go shopping for accesories... it's so erm... girl like? ahha... i don't shop for accesories... sometimes i enter an accesories shop just to look around.. sometimes i'll fiddle with something and say that it's nice... and my dad would want to get it for me.. like i would ever wear it..

SPM was super boring... last year wasn't so bad cos there were more parents... so we were busier... this year, we were rotting, waiting for parents to come.. my dad came to meet cikgu melhan, ms chen and ms leong... haha.. my dad said that cikgu melhan is a fun guy... yeah well malay lessons are usually always enjoying... and my dad says that emily is very chubby... haha... then i met my dad while doing my duty during SPM and i told him i wanted to go to the library and i asked my dad $ for dinner and i felt bad cos he emptied his wallet and gave me all that he had... which was abt $6... and in the end i didnt eat dinner at all... stupid me...

so after SPM, i went to the library AGAIN... i accompanied feena to shop for earrings at causeway pt... naik turun naik turun escalator, in the end go all the way back to this shop outside causeway pt... haiz... in the end, the one that she got is quite nice... heart shaped... typical of feena.

then feena met her mum and sis and i went off alone to the library... by the time it was about 7.30... in the library, i was reading up for history pt and at the same time listening to my mp3.. then i came to this point of the book where they were describing how the POWs during the WWII had to suffer and how they had to struggle to survive... it was so sad and coincidentally my mp3 was playing this really nice sad song about leaving... and i just cried... omg... and in the library too... lucky there wasn't many ppl around... and a line in that chapter made me think of something else and the song playing also reflects on that 'something else' and i just cried more... so i was crying for 2 reasons...haiz...

so i went home at 8.30... bought strawberry sundae and walked home... haha... i guess strawberry sundae says it all );

tuesday-today

Damn long since i editted.. Ahha.. whatever lah.. doubt anybody else ever comes to my blog... Ok.. so my blog skin has changed since 2 days ago.. really big thanks to hariz! :) haha... and he added a tagboard.. so yeah... it's really nice of him lah... but haha.. my blog is still rotting..

So on tuesday, i went to the library and was just about to borrow some books when i realised it's only for reference so i can't borrw it.. haiz.. anyway the books are for history pt..

On wed, i thought of going to the library after to continue my reading but i was tired lah.. and most probly i'll end up sleeping in the library so in the end i bought strawberry sundae and walk home.. I've been walking home since sch reopens... it's quite refreshing... and can see the beautiful sunset if u walk at abt 7pm.. it's really nice.. and i keep on taking pics.. so random.. i'll b lyk walking then suddenly i'll fish out my phone and snap a few photos.. and ppl behind me keep knocking into me cos i suddenly stopped a few times. haha.. so i went home frm cca with feena and lena.. actually we all wanted to meet up at bishan mrt cos they haf 3rd lang then we can go home together but i call them and they didnt pick up their phone so im lyk whatever.. heck..so i just board the train that arrived at toa payoh w/out the intention to wait for them and what do ya know.. they board the train that i was in when the train passes bishan... we're just a few steps away frm each other but i didnt know and me and lena was on the phone talking to each other asking each other where we were.. that's so stupid.

So today after school i went to the library again.. and continued my reading.. i fell asleep while reading for 15 mins.. haha.. and there was this cute guy reading in front of me.. he must be some guai person.. reading those thick books with all that facts and he didnt bring any pen or paper to write down notes etc. so unless he has a gd memory or smthg.. he must be reading for the joy of it. haha..

so tmr we're suppose to wear a green top cos tmr is earth's day... haha.. watever.. and tmr we're learning badminton for pe.. so long haven't play.. haiz.. and haf to stay back tmr to help out at spm.. i hope we dont haf to wear tie again..

and today... i saw mahdi! ahha.. he look kinda same frm last yr.. haha.. i was smiling all the way home cos i saw him and reminds me of EU.. :) haha.. ok.. that's all.. my life is rather boring.

Konsert Wau

After all our hard work... the concert is finally over and I had a great time being part of backstage crew :P Haha! I had a seriously fun time with Dewi, Insyirah and Ain.. as well as Kak Maryam and Kak Ame and the emcees :)

Yeah... we did screw up during the concert itself but heck lah... the audience clapped and laughed really loud for the performance that i screwed up in so... haha.. nvm lah..

and the best part... IMRAN & SLEEQ!!! or shall we just make it Sleeq? haha... Omg... I still rmbred.. I was with Abang Ram trying to fix the microphone stand that i broke. yes i broke a microphone stand.. when i saw them. i straight away ran backstage and trip over Ain.. ooops... sorry Ain!!! well.. yeah.. they were there!!!

They were super tall... Ain and I feel so intimidated... I know abang Imran is really tall. But I had no idea that Alyph and Syarif are that tall..

Haha... I talked to Syarif!!! Wee!!! And Alyph too! They're really cute and funny! Especially Alyph.. haha... He almost forget to return my pen after autographing.. And according to him, he always forgot to return the pen so the girls would usually go like 'my pen!' lawls... Got their autographs too! Haha! <333

I wished we could have talked more.. It's really cool to be making music and singing... haha... would really like to know how they compose even though they don't have music backgrounds...

Bottom line is: Syarif and Alyph are really talented, funny, cute and adorable people!! haha... cair aku... lawls..

And not forgetting abang Imran... he still can sing really really well :) mencairkan <33

After the concert, Feena, Diy, Adri and me went home with Is.. well until the mrt station... cos he had to go the other side.. and we met Kak Sheila and Alimi.. and we went home with Alimi until he alighted at Bishan.. i thought he'd be more reserved but he's nice lah... I think he has nice eyes :) And apparently, he knows Sahail cos they're ruggers... The world apparently loves rugby. Almost all the guys that I know are ruggers.. Well.. what to do? Feena's fault. Haahaa.. I thought Alimi would be taller. I saw him at ORA with his friends and he looked rather tall. So maybe I had eye problems or maybe he shrunk but he's apparantly not that tall.

And Sahail is damn tan now.. He looks nicer when he's not so tan. haha...