K.. back from camp. I'm really really sorry that we broke our promise to our sec 3 ma'ams, to make this tcamp successfull. As in, we tried but I guess maybe it's just not enough. Personally, I thought we could better control our juniors but it's kinda hard since they don't listen to us. We really didn't want to shout but if kind words just make you all more dependant on us, then yelling is perhaps the only answer. We really didn't want to shout. and i'm sorry to those juniors I screamed at to stop dragging, to eat faster, to time etc. As in, yes, juniors can depend on us for some things but not everything. Sometimes it's obvious that some of the juniors are trying hard but like 5 people or so can't make up for the rest of the juniors. And just cos my year is willing to do stuff for the juniors doesn't mean y'all should take it for granted la.. next year is gonna be juniors and your own juniors, we're not gonna help y'all already. So if juniors, you guys aren't ready, how can you help the next batch? And juniors should stop thinking that y'all are princesses cos then you might as well go sleep and dream this kind of stuff. If you're tired, so are we ok.. and we are more tired than you cos we need to take care of you and try to make things organized and it's tiring to literally shout our timing just to cover up your voices, to persevere and carry your babies and camp flags when you say you can't. This is a camp for humans if you hadn't realise so why can't we hear your timing? if you have cramp or stitch, it's most likely that my yearmates has them too. Just persevere. As in, it's ok if you really really cannot take it but don't fake. Don't think the world will wait for you. Just cos the food is a lot, you totally expect us to be your back up stomachs. As we can and will help but please la.. we're not dustbins can?? and we have our share of food too. We're going through the same camp for heaven's sake. Do you really have to wait for us to start crying again, pleading with the ma'ams to return all the kidnapped babies and flags, to try rescuing the babies that were going to be kidnapped but y'all really don't seem to care at all. I don't think we need the ma'ams to scold us before we can co-ooperate right?
I don't believe the juniors were unprepared for massevac. We send them notes. Extra stuff they don't need to yet learn. And we gave them a lot of mass evac pracs and also scenarios. I don't know how that cannot be enough. As in, we can so much give juniors practice and notes but if they don't want to revise on their own then it's out of our hands already.
But I think my year also has a lot of things to improve on. Definitely, we are better at doing first aid and evac but we should help each other buck up. I really need to improve also. A lot. we should build up confidence. I think one of the reason that we are indecisive is because we are completely unsure of which decision to take in case we made a wrong one cos we really really don't want to disappoint the ma'ams again because we realise the effort put in to plan the whole camp and it must have hurt to know the batch that you had a major part in bringing up turn up to be such disappointment. But the time we took in making a decision still earned us a scolding.
To all the day and bunk i/cs.. I'm really really sorry on behalf of the campus (I don't know about the juniors tho..) that we didn't contribute much to make things better. We're really sorry that in the end, you have to bear responsibility for our carelessness, lack of sense of urgency, disorganisation and our selfishness. We're really sorry we didn't listen to you right from the start. And we're sorry that you have to do punishments for us. We're sorry that we left you behind to bear all our mistakes. We're sorry that we are dependant on the i/cs too much just cos we're relieve that we didn't get chosen to be i/c. Saying sorry definitely isn't enough. But I really swear that I'll try my best to make things run smoothly by listening to i/cs all the time and I'm sure yearmates feel the same way too. I'm just saying that I love all you yearmates deep down in my heart and it's time I have to prove it.
To juniors, please please buck up. It's not too much to ask when we say 'try. just try and persevere'. We love you all too so we really want to see you be the best cadets you can be. We want to feel the satisfaction that we had a part in making a successful batch of cadets who are efficient. those who did try, thanks really a lot but rmbr you are all a year and not an individual so please help each other out.
Juniors, it's really come to begging from our year. We can't be with you always, to help you. In fact, next year's training camp is going to be run by us and we don't want to be disappointed that the cadets that we help brought up turned out to be horrible. I think it's enough that we disappoint the ma'ams during these 2 days but it's possible to make ammeds and be terrifically better next year and the year after and so continuing on..
We'll make this a unit effort ok.. jiayou everyone..
this is a personal opinion so sorry for any possible hurting remarks.