Rehearal yesterday was a bit wasted cos all of us were really there only at 7 and we prac only twice or so... and miza and I saw khai and fird practiced dikir with the abangs. it was cool. abang idil is in dikir too. no wonder the moves are all hip-hopish. abang idil is cool! haha.. he's such an awesome dancer. i kinda forgot he's a student there too. haha.. Miza and I got almost all their steps already. yeah us! we were attempting to do it in school but we forgot the front part. so it's almost got it right. :D Dikir is cool. <33 dikir cos it's just cool.
I just realised that khai and fird will be performing all 3 items. o.O tarian, dikir AND drama... what the shitz. i wanna do dikir too ya know.. ok ok whatever..
So I had a breakdown yesterday. :/ it just had to be in nus in front of them. Siti was telling me not to let it affect my dancing. Don't bring all my problems there. That was exactly my point when i hid in the toilet twice.
So to list all the things i worry about:
1) ________________________________
the root of the problem, where it all started out with.. haiz... then it got super complicated. it's a like a tree. once u've got the root it grows and branches out.
2) ________________________________
personal. house not home.
3) my health. funny cos stressing isn't healthy either.
4) school is killing us all..
5) my brothers... 1 has to go through an operation. i know it's supposedly not suppose to be serious but i hate seeing him in the hospital again. the last time he was hospitalised for almost a month, the doctors kept on drawing blood from him every 2 days. they poke the long needle through the back of his hand and he cried everytime. that was about 3 years ago.
and my other brother.. i'm worry about his well being. he's stressed with his commitments like soccer and all those leadership stuff. he's not doing so well in his studies and my mum is pressurising him. she's pressurising all 3 of us. come on dude.. make it to university. be an inspiration for me when i get to RJC like how u you inspired be to do well for PSLE so that i can get into anderson but i overshot and got into RGS. idiot.
and yeah... i know she's not me...
Next rehearsal is on friday. then saturday is the full dress. time flies. i wanna go back to admps next wednesday but i have a strong feeling they wanna have rehearsals again. not that i don't love going for rehearsals but i do have to go back to where i belong now and then.
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