thursday

Biology test was seriously shit... I don't think I'll fail but I'll get borderline marks or something... At least I studied... didn't have enough time to check and i was quite panicky.. let bygones be bygones maths is finally taking a break... phew... and and i manage to get my graphs right... and trigonometry is doing well for me... i think
so yesterday had rehearsal... at my house... it was damn cram lah... 10 people... what the hell.. there was enough space cos we spread to both halls but when we had a combined prac... oh god... we're all so cram inside hall no.2.
the prac was supposed to start at 5 but in the end, we start at 6.15 or so... the girls went to my place first cos siti knows the way so yeah... and hamizah, hazly, khai and me waited for fird and omar cos they were late... at least they come.. what the hell.. all the way from tampines..
so at my place we basically synchro and the guys had trouble with posture especially khai whom siti and miza commented that his butt was jutting out and omar is too tall that he looked weird when he bent down. quote from fird 'khai macam beruk'. haha... shan't be mean..
then we rehearsed till abt 8 or so and we had dinner... my mum was nice enough to cook... omg.. for 10 ppl (10 is excluding me).. it was simple but nice.. and feena shld stop her dieting nonsense.. she's already so thin.. diy and lena had to feed feena cos she wouldn't eat... and the rest finished the meal.. it was wet fried noodles.. i hope they liked it.. would have cooked for them if my mum hadn't already volunteered to cook.. i was suppose to do it but whateverlah.. yeah.. made them drinks... let's see what else happened.. actually i wouldn't know cos i was in the kitchen washing up the plates and cups and forks while khai finished my noodles.. he was hungry so i just gave him my portion which miza said he didn't finish and in the end, miza finished it i think.. i didn't eat the whole of thursday.. actually i did but it wasn't proper meals.. i just took some food from friends during recess and had a light snack (banana pancakes..) in the afternoon but i didn't really eat the whole day..
then solat.. then the guys wanted to jam.. by the time we finished dinner my dad and brother came home already.. so fird and khai played the guitar and my brother played the drums.. but it wasn't synchro.. bayangan gurauan.. jiwang seh.. haha.. yeah it's a nice song.. then after my brother went ngaji.. stupid.. i had to treat him $2.. i intended to save money to buy some albums.. can't ask my dad for money already.. okok so then, we asked fird and khai to demo what they do for NUS dikir.. omg... it's damn cute lah... we all wanna join NUS dikir but the problem is the rehearsal dates... if it's a saturday then i'm bloody shit.. damn it.. shld have changed my madrasah day to sunday.. stupid sia.. and omg.. khai and fird has nice voice...!!! haha.. miza, feena and i has been attempting to do dikir in class.. and feena hasn't gone beyond the stage of clapping.. shld pester cikgu to have dikir next year.. yeah we shld seriously pester cikgu abt it.. it's stupid that dikir is canceled to make way for penerbitan.. penerbitan is like dead now... there's no point carrying on with it
then at about 9 or so, the guys and girls left and i was suppose to walk them to causeway pt. as we were reaching causeway pt, i got triggered by cigarette smoke and they were worried cos my breathing was hard and irregular so in the end, siti sent me home.. the rest had to go off already.. what the hell.. i was suppose to see them off.. it was damn scary the way they reacted.. especially siti and fird...
at first, they told me that they can just carry on from there after my breathing went back to almost normal so i shld go home and sms them when i'm home.. so i said ok and watch them cross the road and walk towards causeway pt. and then i started coughing again and i leaned against a tree and they all saw and ran back.. someone was shouting my name.. i'm a bit -_-" i'm seriously more concerned abt them worrying abt me then my own health at that pt of time cos i seriously didn't wanna trouble them.. then fird, khai and siti debated abt someone sending me home. the rest just go home first. so in the end siti sent me home.. fird had to go off cos he lives in tampines and he had to travel a long way and he had to reach home by a certain time so yeah.. kesian seh.. and khai was shuffling btwn either sending me home or not but in the end he went off with fird. i was really relieved that he didn't send me home cos then it'll be one person less i'm troubling.. i feel so fragile.. what the hell.. so siti send me home and i smsed fird to say that i'm fine when i reached home..
i hope i don't trigger again.. khai and fird was so abang-like to me yesterday and siti is like my 'kakak'.. haha.. shocked me the way they reacted..
reading harry potter book now.. i better finish it tonight cos my brother wants to lend it to his friend tmr..